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Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2009-11-19T22:57:00.002+08:00

I am back! My sister ditched this blog already.. sad sad sad! hahaha ;) Oh, I haven't been blogging for so long. I just don't have the inspiration to start telling stories or opinions lately. I just don't and I can't write about anything. I guess I'm just too happy and I haven't got the time to blog! I am always busy with the loved ones and Facebook! lol.

So, have I told you one good news? Um, no I haven't! Oh, just want to let the whole world know that I have passed my probation.. No more probation baby! Syukur Alhamdulillah. Too bad I didn't even think about celebrating it. hehe. One of my colleagues just asked about it, then only I thought about it. wheww... maybe next month la when I feel like it :) treat myself with chocolate cheesecake. Whaaaaat.

I just bought 'Her World' magazine last night! Finally. I haven't bought any magazines for ages man. So not updated with fashion, tips, stories, etc. so not great! hehe. I used to love reading magazines - looking at the different style of clothing, tips for better relationships, tips for dieting and all sorts. I love 'Cleo' but not the ones from Malaysia or Singapore (No offence).. but I prefer the ones from Australia.. much more interesting, I guess. So now, I wanna start collecting magazines (useful ones!) again, though it may be a waste of money. but hey, sometimes they give good tips too! ;) so, it'd be worth it. wuhu.

I'm missing my siblings so bad. Especially my sister. Miss having someone to joke around with and someone to share silly stories, ideas and acts with! Miss you beebeeeeeeeh. Mwah.

Oh well! it's friday tomorrow and I can't wait for weekends. Wuhuuuu I LIKE!

Sunday!

2009-10-25T17:58:00.002+08:00

I love Sundays! The day for me to laze around and do whatever I want without worrying about the bosses' expectations! But, what I hate about Sunday is that it is the end of the week! tomorrow is Monday - have to see those same faces again. Okay, one new update is I've passed my probation! yay. and now, i've been given more tasks. tasks that need more thinking. OMG! I think I need to revise everything that I've studied in Uni. susah oh susah.. coz I've forgotten most of the things that I've studied before. damn. Ok, I do not want to talk about work. let's talk about.... hmm..

Okay, we were at my Uncle's crib for lunch - then we watched The Orphan - that movie still gets on my nerve. hehe. after that movie, we watched this lame and such a low-quality Indonesian movie named "Ku tunggu jandamu". I don't know why but my Aunty bought that. We watched it together with my parents, aunties and uncles and all, sungguh la aku malu because the movie is so, porn-ish! yes, to me it is more like a cheap porn movie! what has happened to the directors now. and What happened to the indonesian female artists now? Don't they have any dignities? Me, as a female, it is so embarassing. They look so cheap for acting like that. showing off their bras, half of their bodies and so on. and guess what, the movie was too boring I fell asleep (Ok, that won't be such a surprise to some people that I sleep over most movies! hehehe) but this one, I think I just wanna close my eyes and enjoy my dream rather than watching some lame and very capi-capi movie! Oh well..

What else? my sister updated with some stories. and yea, why are there still lots of selfish people in the world? I can't understand. it's not that I'm not selfish sometimes, but this one, it's just unacceptable. An older lady is being very selfish towards the younger ones. what the hell.. But wait, am I not being selfish too towards some people? hahaha. what am i talking about! it's all mixed up. I am mad at selfish people but I am selfish too. So, that means, I am mad at myself. hehe. ok whatever. screw me!

Okay. I sympathise my parents whenever I have to go back to Bandar. I know they feel lonely here without the three of us. oi kamu dua, u better come back! we all miss you both.. If only my workplace is not too far, at least they'll have me in this house to make this house not too quiet. sigh.

Oh, I think i better get going. have to go back to Bandar soon before it gets too late. tata titi tutu.

Bored!

2009-10-22T11:29:00.003+08:00

Wow, it's been a month since I last blogged. Life's been pretty much the same. Nothing new or interesting. Oh, one new thing would be .. I'll be moving in with my Aunty next month. and I'm loving my new room because I'll have my own bathroom! no more sharing =). I'm at work and I'm quite free at the moment. My supervisor is out but I think she'll be back in a bit which means, I have to stop blogging right away! lol.

I was reading through the previous posts that my sister and I had posted - most of them were silly posts and some just made me think of how my life was compared to my life now. I think I complained a lot back then and now, I just can't be bothered to blog because I'm just too content and happy with my life and the people around me til I have no time to blog. Or, is it because I only blog when I feel sad and lonely? well, maybe! like, NOW! hahaha. I'm happy but I'm just bored. ..

Ummm, will continue later. My supervisor will be back soon. tata.

I Miss You!

2009-09-16T22:18:00.006+08:00

It is still fresh and new to me not having them around. I miss my two clowns - Safwan and Anisah. They're so far away! I miss them terribly. If I think about it too much, I would cry. Raya is coming soon and it's even sadder having no one to laugh with (I know my aunties, uncles and cousins are around).. it's just that, I'm very close to both of them and we talk alot with each other and laugh over nonsensical conversation! and now, they're not around. BORING okay! I miss you both. :'( like, terribly.. especially Anisah, now, I have no one to like binge on food macam orang inda pernah liat makanan :( I miss you.

Anyway, if you're reading this, both of you, study smart and come back with flying colours. I know you both can do it. Just think of how much Bapa and Mama have sacrificed for you both. It's not easy to repay them back but I think by coming back with your 1st class degree will definitely make them both happy and proud.

Damn! I miss you both so much :'(

Aww. Shuuweeet! I miss you loads. like, banyak berabis mcm habuk2 yang inda pandai kana bersihkan for a decade! haha. But seriously dut. Aku sunyi tanpa mu~~~ LOL.

<3

2009-08-08T21:36:00.002+08:00

I know how much it hurt you back then and how much it still hurts you now. Forgive me for all the things that I did to you. I know it's hard because I can't even fully forgive myself yet. I don't know how to forgive myself. I am still trying my best to be the best for you. I know the past just can't stop haunting you but I can assure you that the past will disappear soon :). I understand it is hard for you to accept the things that had happened in the past, but, I am very grateful that you're always there for me no matter what. You're there when I'm sad, you're there when I'm happy, you support me in everything and you're there to make me smile all the time. That's what so special about you. I can feel how much you truly love me. Thank you love! Thank you for everything. I hope this special relationship will last forever. I really love you, Isa Putera :)

boring.

2009-08-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

I am listening to Salman Khan talking on TV! Why is mama watching this?? Anyone has any updated trip-hop/emo songs? I need more of these songs. chillax millax. I'm bored. I miss Isa. :( What have u been up to people? My life's been the same everyday. nothing interesting. Um, there are lots of interesting things to share but I think I'm better off keeping it to myself (and I only share it with certain people, you know who you are!). And oh, please please please tell me why can't I find nice clothes in Brunei? No offence, but most of the clothes are very hongkie. I don't really fancy hongkie's style. I need to shop. I need to travel. Not need, I WANT TO TRAVEL AND SHOP!! I just realised shopping in Brunei is boring. I think I miss Perth (the shopping part!!). Although there are not so many shops there, the styles and fashion are updated and the clothes are nice! Hmm. Ok enough of this. I don't really know what to share. I'm bored.

Ok bye. I'm bored.

Emo night!

2009-07-28T23:01:00.003+08:00

How I wished the past could be undone. How I wished I was bright enough to realize sooner that the things I did were wrong. But then, what's the point of regretting? Would I get anything and would the past disappear? Well, it would disappear, but unfortunately, it cannot be undone at all. Everything just keeps lingering on my mind and it annoys me. Everyday I keep thinking of ways to forgive myself. It's not that easy. I did lots of mistakes. I feel sad for doing things that I should not have done. I feel a bit blue lately. However, I thank Isa for being there for me all the time. He makes me forget about the things that have been playing on my mind. Damn, I just don't understand myself sometimes. Why did I do such a thing? Why didn't I think of the consequences before I do it? Why did I not think that I'd regret all of these? Oh well.. nevertheless, I think I'm thankful for having all these kinds of experiences because it teaches me and leads me to be a better person. I know it's a lesson for me.

Haih.. Emotional much? Yea! I just feel kinda blue tonight....

I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Whatever it is, I'll always love you Alliisa Putera :)

idiot!

2009-07-25T17:19:00.001+08:00

Why do we do stupid things? Why don't we think before we do something? Don't you think we are just idiots acting like smart people? Whatever!

Humans are weak weak weak! Ok, be strong! :)

I think I'm high!

2009-07-20T09:17:00.005+08:00

It's very early in the morning! I woke up at 8am! Why can't I wake up a bit later? It's a public holiday! OMG. The image practically shows how happy and high I am this morning. I haven't had coffee yet. but then I think I'm more like this....

high sampai aku juling! ;) Damn, actually this image is animated but I don't know why it doesn't show here. Malu kali! Actuarrrry aaa, the butterflies are flying around sampai the owl's eyes go round and round and round~ what the hell?

Why can't the public holiday sampai tomorrow? or till Friday! Ugh, work again tomorrow. BORING. I don't think I'm in a mood to work this week. My friend/colleague resigned already. I'm gonna miss having you sit in front of me girl and talk or call your name just to distract you. Now, I have no one to bitch about your 'sister' with me. Maybe, I should bitch about her with your 'aunty' instead. HAHAH :) Oh well.

I feel fat today, no not really. I wanna head to the gym later but I think I feel lazy. Maybe tomorrow? yea, tomorrow! I ate quite a lot yesterday. Inda pulang.. but ok lah. I had nasi katok at night coz I was starving. I don't really eat rice at night but I had no choice. Isa had bought me one, so what the hell, I was too hungry, makan saja la and it was goooooooooooooooooood ;) Thanks baby! Now, i think I want another Nasi katok Kaka or mama! mcm sama rasanya. Eh becerita wah aku ni. omg, DHL has given me a false hope!! FALSE HOPE!! It wasn't a letter for interview, it was a freakin' rejection letter. HOW COULD YOU!!! I was very disappointed. haha. inda lah. Coz I wasn't looking forward to it, so I didn't get too upset. It was alright. But, I'm still waiting for a better job offer! hello helloooooo..

I love family gatherings. It's so 'mengerat kan silaturrahim' sesama insan! lol. I am quite or should I say a very family-oriented. I love my fams. They are great. So, whenever there's a family gathering, I get so excited coz I get to tease them and laugh with them aunties, uncles and the cousins, especially, the little ones! Besides that, there will be loads of food - whether they are from caterings or home-made food. I love home-made food, especially the ones cooked by my mom. She's my best cook ever! :) Although I'm back in Brunei for good, I still miss eating dinner with my family - masakan mama coz I'm rarely home. I only go home during the weekends! haih. but yea. Ok, back to family gathering - apart from food and the laughters, I just love hearing and seeing the kids playing around and chasing each other, just lazing around watching whatever-is-on-the-tv and then, talk about random things with them. So, yesterday, we had this usual family gathering at my granny's place. Not all of us were there, two of my aunties weren't there. We had cucur pisang, biskut tiger (biskut tiger la jua ku sabut kan.. haha), longan and.. coffee/nescafe! I didn't get to eat the ones that my uncle brought coz he was late!! I was about to go home already. oh well. and.. I think that's about it this week's gathering. Looking forward to this week's or maybe next week's gathering. I loveeeeeeeeeeeeee my family to bits. ;) and, my little cousin Azeem makes it more merrier coz hes sooooo adorable and cute!

I am just so random! However, there are two things that I've been dreaming of getting;

1) Guess watch (But, I couldn't find a good-and-so-fine-looking watch!)

2) Balenciaga bag

isn't it adorable? They have it here in Brunei and I really want it :) Why can't I stop buying things I don't really need? But hey, I need this bag coz I can use it for work and for shopping. can't I? Ummm whatever! but, I really need to get new handbags and new clothes! I'm running out of clothes. :( BAH BYE!!

:D

2009-07-17T22:07:00.004+08:00

I'm feeling oh-so-whatever tonight! I don't feel like dressing up, I don't feel like eating, I don't feel like doing anything. I feel like lying down on the bed and look at the ceiling till I get bored. But then, I looked at this laptop and I thought, I should just blog and update something. Oh, yes, here i am! What's up with me lately? Well.. been out and about. busy at work. spent most of my time with Isa. <3 <3!

This month, nothing much. went to see the animal show at Q-lap mall and wow, I dared to touch and carry the snake. ofcourse not me alone la. Isa was there carrying it with me. lol. Thank god my muscleman was there. If it wasn't because of him, i wouldn't dare touch the snake. ok! the pics are all in facebook. malas ku upload sini!

besides that, Isa and I went for dinner at Pantai restaurant, Empire hotel! It was great. The view was great. Food was great. He's got the free dinner voucher, so why not! hehe. and thanks for choosing me to be your dinner partner. eseh!! haha. mcm inda biasa saja ah. I'm so malas to post the pics coz the uploader is too slow? Oh well! They're all in facebook though. So, u can check the pics out from facebook. You should take a look at the picture of the applecrumble! damn. It was good. I can still remember the taste of the scrumptious apple-crumble. hehe.

What else? I have to stay fit. ;) Oh, I've got another job interview but I'm not sure when coz I'm only going to get the letter tomorrow. OMG!! Though I'm not so looking forward to it, but I'm sure if I get it, the pay is much better. hmmm.. ok ok.

Oh.. I am so in love with..........

My sexy model - Alli Isa Putera. I love you sayaaaang.
Life's much much much better with you in it.
Damn, you drive me crazy! Even if I see you everyday, I never get tired of you. You're just too irresistable. Everything you do is too cute. that means, you never fail to make me smile and laugh everyday. You brighten my day when I think my day is too dull. See, I don't even get tired of talking about you! ;) I love you!!

Nice

2009-07-15T09:56:00.000+08:00

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,
So love the people who treat you right,
Forget about the ones who don't,
And believe that everything happens for a reason.
If you get a chance, take it.
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said life would be easy"

Baby, I'm back!

2009-07-07T19:40:00.002+08:00

Whats up orang (people)?

Guess is the what! I ate quite alot today and craved for different different food especially the sweet ones! The PMS is kicking in seriously. Banar wah banar! haha. I went to KB to get my ATM card. I got my own ATM card baby! *buat muka rock \m/!!* HAHA. Awu, sakai ku. After 19 years. And my own HEADSTART!! *muka rock lagi & sticks out tongue \m/!!* I can get a discount from excapade! *muka rock!!* Majal.

So anyways, I was so lazy to drive just now but I had to. I HAD TO! Drove for 30mins and was in KB for only 2 freaking mins! 2 - 4 mins lah! Then I went back. Boring bah tu inda pedah. haha. So while I was on my way back, it was scorching hot so my mind was telling me to buy BLIJJARD! Blizzard goooooooooooood. I tried to fight it cause I ate alot at home and I'm trying to control what I eat to keep myself healthy. So kept on fighting and forcing myself not to buy it, and I did! How? I told myself to save money :). hahaha. TAPIKAN! I remembered there was maltesers at home and vanilla ice cream. AND.. I ate it. There goes my diet. IT WAS HARD OKAY! PMS PMS! :( hahahaha. But I went jogging after that and I feel good now! I feeeeeeeeel gooood~ I am hungry. I cant wait for dinner!!

I want to open my own personal blog eh. This time I'm serious. No more a link to oink oink picture. hahaha. I just feel like opening up my own. Ani kan share sama si Lisa saja. Nyamak. HAHAHAH nada wah sis. HAHA bida. SIS SIS. It'll be soooooooooooooooon. :D

Bah, dinner time!!

2009-07-06T23:18:00.001+08:00

HAI YAM BORETS! =8(

will you still love me tomorrow.

2009-07-06T17:37:00.003+08:00

I am extremely full right now! Bloated! Bulat! Brabis! It was scorching hot when I was on the way home, and when I arrived I felt hungry all of sudden. So as usual, I went to the kitchen and took one round chocolate, then I ate the I dont know whats it called keropok but it was extremely yummy and I cant stop eating it but at some point i gotta stop! It was good seriously. SERIOUSLY! After the keropok, I found Red Bull in the fridge!! I drank it and was full and re-energized after that! Exercise jua ku di dapur :). hahahaha.

Was planning to jog today pasal aku minum redbullah. So I sent one of my sport shoe yang telakap to the kadai kasut and guess what. 7 30pm baru siap! I was too eager to jog today cause of you know, redbullah.. I asked him again if he can finish it patang or what? Then he said..ok lah. 7pm. Inda pedah. haha. Baik ku gam sendiri tu pakai selotip. Wuuuuuu. This is redbullah talking! I don't know whos redbullah was that in the fridge, but I drank it =/. Blame it on the p p p p p p pms. Pms jua.

I miss you you you you you and YOU!

BYE!

cause she walk like the boss.

2009-07-05T19:36:00.006+08:00

WASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSAPP! I jumped like crazy with my baju kurung on cos I feel bloated! :D :D. haha. Hai, I am still in Bandar because I am so lazy to drive back to lumut pasal I went for nikah in the afternoon with my sistut, and was full after that and fell asleep :). I still feel abit drowsy.

I'm bored and I think I'm going crazy. I dont know the truth and that bugs me so much! So so much. So so so so so so..TONG! haha baie lame. I think I should just see what happens. Fool me once, taie mu trabang. I hate liars. Who doesnt maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Patience is a virtue. Inhaleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Exhaleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Bah, I'm off to shower pasal aku wangi kamu bau and adeler.

*EDIT

Oh, so I erased some of my previous post upstairs. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Upstairs yo! I mean above. Up in the sky. Apakan. Because when I was in the toilet doing my bujiness(business), I realised that its not supposed to be there. Its supposed to be up in yo ass! Yeah I think I was feeling abit cranky cos I woke up like few hours ago when I posted that. Balum shower bah! Ani I showered tenang tia pikiran kadiaku. hahahaha apakan. Sekali kan I showered sudah! HMMMMMMM HOKAYYYY.

..and you guys should take scotts emulsion! It'll prevent you from H1N1! Insya Allah.

"Menolong membina ketahanan terhadap jangkitan".

My sister's bopreng asked her to take it, and aku pun mau asi2 ambil pasat I want to be healthy! :) Boprengnya si Scotts emulsion guy. WUU!

Bah, Wapee, Nisa, citra! Jogging ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! Jabilah pun! I know you love jogging. :) :). Amal pun! Semua sekali! hahahahaha.

"Mau kurus inda?????" Wapee's motivation word. Thats why I love to go jogging with you mang! Nisa, get your ass off the bed wumaaaaaaan!! Citra, lets jog in the rain pasal tani pemajal. Nabilah, jogging will make you fat! Mal, kau bau taie.

Gila, I miss them :(. And I am going to miss them! Heish.

Bah, blow dry rambut ku dulu buang frust. HAHA. I am soooooooooooooooooooooo gonna buy Big Mac tomorrow eh! OHH OHH!! I told you I wanna have my own blog kan. So heres the link! http://nisutjilothree.blogspot.com/ Feel free to link me up! :D

Bye.

Raindrops from the sky.

2009-07-03T11:29:00.003+08:00

Its raining heavily now and I have the mood to blog! Amaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazing. I'm supposed to be sleeping wah ni when its raining. KAN! It'll be niceeee..*imagines* =)). apakan. Tapi anak dara inda buleh bangun ahir wah. Thats why im awake. Bagus anak daranya ni :8). HAHA. So, I was soundly sleeping, was dreaming about something nice then I felt like my body was being rocked by a monster!!! It was my sister! KACAU SAJA. She asked me to send her to work cause she forgot to bring her bicycle to bandar. ha-ha. Kidding. Her car got bumped by a cross-eyed man who can't see the CAR! Damit kali kereta si lisa ani. haha. But oh well, at least the man didn't hit and run. She called my sister and bedating tia durang tarus. ASL PLZ! HAHAHA.

Its almost lunch time now, and I'm going to wait till the rain stops then I'll go lunch. I'm going out for lunch cos I'm not at home in Lumut and theres no food here! So I'll just be patient sampai kajar2 mulutku. If the rain doesnt stop, I'll starve to death. (y). So heres the plan! If the rain doesnt stop, I'll run outside as fast as I could, and slip a few times, crawl under someones car, go out to the gate and gagas gagas unlock my car!!! Uwh, I feel like james bun bun. Whateba.

Bah, I'm off to shower and ponder about something! Rain rain go away, come again another day.

OH! HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO MIZAH!! :D :D Have a blast, love!

Send my regards to my cucu, Natalia! TUHA KU UDAH BECUCU! haha

uwee.

2009-07-02T18:31:00.002+08:00

How many years havent I blogged kan? haha over. Theres nothing to blog about. There is but I am just plain lazy. Lahaaahaaayzy. Been busy. Abit. haha. So anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyys, I dont know. Ok what am I saying. I feel happy. I am happy. But.. The word BUT is not good! I am feeling abit sdjfsdlfjsdsfdsfd. I think its the pms. Pfft.

Something is bothering me. Thats just it. Ergh

My brain has officially corrode! GREAT! OH, maybe I want to open my own blog! Just maybe. Should I or should I not. Apakan. Indecisive berabis. Karang nangis si lisa? HAHA. BAH, ill blog next time. I really have nothing to say. I just..just just just because! wtf.

June!

2009-06-28T13:21:00.003+08:00

What have you been up to my dear readers? Has life been treating you good? Has life been treating you fairly? I bet it has. Oh, I smell nice. I love the smell of Dove body lotion. <3>

ok, what else? Oh, I can't wait for the company's dinner. I'm still thinking of what to wear. I think I wanna go find a dress to wear for the dinner, later! where can I find a really nice and not so pricey dress? HELP!

Did I tell you about my boss's birthday dinner? Um, I think I didn't. I posted the pictures in facebook. The dinner was quite happening. I was really hyped up that night with my colleagues. I didn't really sing that night coz i was a bit shy shy shy cat! ew. But, I think I'm gonna sing during the company's dinner. weeeeeee :)

Last night, went with isa to his close friend's function. His friend is getting married today. Congrats Taufik :) U can check out the groom and the friends in facebook. And the most embarrassing thing happened last night was I had to sing in front of people (people I don't really know!). Isa tu punya pasal! HAHAHA. Out of tune please coz I was too nervous and wasn't ready at all. Coz what I know right, my voice is so lawa OKAY! HAHAHAHAHA. ;) kidding. tapi, yes, alum panas wah tu last night. Kajar2 jua bibir menyanyi. lol.

Besides that, I've watched transformers. I know I didn't really watch the first one but the transformers 2 was really good. and as a girl and not in a weird way, I'd love to say that Megan Fox is so hot! hot! hot! I want her body. I want her eyes. Ok, that sounds weird. But, she is hot right! kenapa none of the guys in the movie were hot? please tell me! It's okay, the guy who sat next to me during the movie was hot and sexy already. Not only during the movie, but anytime anywhere, I always drool on him! Besides, I'm even in love with him. nice! can you guess who he is? ;) haha.

Hmmkays, my shoulder hurts. I need a massage. Ok tata!

On your boobsday!

2009-06-22T19:06:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY WAPEE! <3

*bang bang boom*

tingles in my tummy.

2009-06-21T17:45:00.003+08:00

It has been a long time I haven't felt this way. I don't care if it doesn't last long. I don't care if its only for awhile. Because I'm loving this feeling right now. HAHH! :)

Love songs do exist! Sad songs, can you please come another time and have a long holiday?

at work!

2009-06-19T13:46:00.005+08:00

The picture can tell you exactly what I'm feeling right now. I AM FULL, BLOATED AND SLEEEEPY. The most beautiful and coolest thing in the world at this minute is the bed with comfy quilt and pillows! It's friday and tomorrow is weekend. I love weekends. And please please please give me more weekends. I wish everyday is weekend. ;) Damn, I should've been more grateful and should've enjoyed my long holiday back then kan! Haiyo...

Ok, back to work! Wait.. I have no work. Wait, I do. No, yes, no, yes, no, yes.. ok yes, a little bit of work. Tata Titi Tutu.

hello again!

2009-06-10T22:42:00.006+08:00

Blog ani buruk. Inda beupdate. hahaha.

Whats new with me? UHM...basically, nothing! Same old same old..family, friends, Edward cullen. :) HAHAHA. Still with the Edward. *cries dramatically* OHHH. Talking about eeeedewurd. I cannot wait for 20th november!!(MAN, BUKAN PASAL BUBUSDAY MU OK) New moon is coming out soon soon soon soon. I'm not expecting anything great cause the book will always be the greatest than the movie..but still I don't care. Ok what am I blabbing about. Taylor Lautner is going to be sizzling hot in that movie. *TSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!

I can't seem to think straight now lately. I am all over the place and I can't even express my own feelings anymore. I feel so numb. I feel so dumb. I feel so out of place. I dont even know where to start all over again. I need some chocolates! wehus. I am officially a messylazyslackerprocrastinator lady! I delayed things that I shouldve done weeks ago(like cleaning my shipwrecked look alike room), I didnt come to my music class for 3847325734297 times which is the one thing that Ive always wanted to do when I was a kid and daynightdream about being a professional pianist (WHERES THE FULL STOP). I didnt even put up pictures in this blog like I said I would! Whaaazeeeevug is zhaaaat. Please advice.

I am going to post up pictures by today. Just some of it. I don't know if people read this blog? Nowadays people are on facebook 24hours. PESBUK PESBUK PESBUK. Tag here tag there which is nice. Look here look there.

Pesbuk = menyibuk.

I want to read some books. I want to read some books. I want to get out of here! Lapastukan..I feel so annoyed today! Really annoyed. I get annoyed with everything. Some words can piss me off just like that! Macam like that! Like that *tap fingers* Ladies, you know how it feels like to be on a PMS mode riiiiiiiiiiiiiight. MCM OOEMGEE berabis. I feel like choking someone then stab them 101.1 times :'). Piss me off once you'll get on my nerves, piss me off twice I'll be like incredible hulk. HAHAHAHAH APAKAN APAKAN APAKAN!! Shutup.

Every worthless word we get more far away,
and nothing's ever promised tomorrow today,
And nothing lasts forever but be honest babe, it hurts but it may be the only way

Laughter is the best medicine. What happens after we are out of jokes to laugh at? BUY LAUGHTER. WTF.

"Laughter is the new botox" - Anisah. hahahahahahaha. Inda mau tinggal.

men men men..

2009-06-09T18:48:00.002+08:00

So, why do men love bitches? or more like, why men love bitches!! That's cause bitches have controls on themselves. Uh-oh... Ok, whatever! I'm still reading the book, "Why men love bitches" by Sherry Argov. It's a good book, I tell you (for girls, that is!). It's teaching you and opening up your mind to be nice but not too nice and not to be taken for granted. cause, basically, guys take those nice girls for granted. Oh well. I'm still reading it and you girls should read the book too. :)

Ok, I'm tired tired tired. I am not that exhausted but I think I'm tired. LOL! Ok, that clearly shows that I'm tired kan. Ok, enough of the word tired. I can't wait for my hair to grow longer. Lambat wah kan panjang. BORING! Hmm, work is great. Right! I don't wanna talk about work. We celebrated my mom's birthday and had bbq at my grandparents' crib. It was great and had great food :) nyum. I want grilled chicken lagi.. I'm looking forward to moving to a new place, free dinner (at least I think it's free lol!), and.. seeing isa in 2 hrs time lol.

relationship-wise, never been better and never been happier. My relationship with isa is great. No complains at all. I love me I love you I love us.. hehehe. Ok enough. I am hungry, and I can't wait to enjoy the ambuyat tonight. Nyum.. Mmbah, I'm off. :) aku malas post pictures. sooooooooooooooo... tong!

Greeting!

2009-05-29T23:23:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 49th BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED MAMA!

I love you I love you!

I will post up pictures soon. Soon soon nada jua tu! HAHA I will kay! And I had a really great dinner today! VERY FULL VERY HYPER VERY GOOD!

Cheers!

*****EDIT****IM GONNA POST UP PICTURES!***************************************

FRATINI!

OK. I look pretty messed up. But I dont care bcos its me and my mama~ :D

The yummiest TIRA MISS YOU ever.

KL

2009-05-28T20:25:00.002+08:00

KL trip was awesome! though, there was a big disappointment too. Thank god, I got over it while I was in KL. If i didn't, I don't think I can have fun. hehe. All in all, after 2 whole years of not seeing Via, it was great when I finally get to see her! It was great though it was only for 3 days. We had fun and we had a name for us - the Wajiders! We even have our song about Wajid. Nice Nice! We didn't shop much. and the last day shopping was kind of funny because we were rushing! hahaha. Rushing but I got 3 shoes for myself. Cool. I am not going to post up any pictures yet. I feel so malas. but Yea.. it was great great great! I hope to see you again Via! I miss youuuuuu. and if there's any good news, I will definitely let you know. HAHAHAHA.

Back in Brunei, back to the same routine. work.work.work. The best part of my day everyday is seeing isa and spending time with isa :). I like!! Oh, I miss my parents and my grandmamaaaa. It feels like I haven't seen them for ages. uweks! oh well well..

1000 years.

2009-05-26T16:37:00.002+08:00

HELLO! Miss me? Miss me? Miss me? I know you do! ='). hahahaha.

Haven't been updating yah? SO SO SO! I have so many things in my mind to story story with you but its just too much! Over. Bah, come meet me and we story story together! LETS GONE! hahahahah.

Once upon a time, I am not working anymore. Apakan apakan apakan! Bah, be serious! So yeah, I finished my 1 month work already. I was working at AsiaInc.. was just helping out for the ABAC event and that explains the working for 1 month only. Worked in the office for about 2 weeks I think and for a week at Empire. It was a really really great experience for me, met with nice and great people, worked with them. It was great! GREAT! I can't really elaborate how great it is but you guys can just imagine.. 'GREAT!' Although it was hectic but it was great and I love it. How many times have I said great? Bah, I wanna make a speech for awhile.

I want to thank you to the people that I worked with in the office and also at the empire especially the secretariats. Thanks for the opportunity to work with you guys, and the nice treatment that I got, sugar and spice and everything nice! Nice knowing all of you and thanks for all the great and crazy times! To the secretariats, although we only knew each other for only a week, but it felt like we knew each other for so long! And I miss you guys!! Hope to have this kind of opportunity again in the future. See you guys around! :D

Ceh ceh ceh! As if they would read this no? ...and terima kasih kepada kedua ibu bapaku, keluargaku, rakan sekelas, kawan karibku dan semua orang yang ku kenal.. terima kasih atas penghargaan dan trophy ini!! *cries* hahahahah. OK BAH!

I still feel the excitement!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh :)). OHHH. I just came back from KL yesterday. The trip was great! Because we ate wajid everyday! BREAKFASTLUNCHDINNER! hahahaha. It was good good good. So will post up the pictures soon yah!

Soon is soon!

PAPAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII. and I got 30mins left to wait to pick up my sister. Counting time!

Cheersnigga! lol

Never been happier!

2009-05-17T13:24:00.002+08:00

Life's getting better and I feel very happy. "When was the last time you cried?", he asked. After he asked, then only I noticed that I haven't cried for quite a while or for quite long now. It's been great. Hopefully, it'll stay this way everyday and forever (eyoh, forever! :D). Apart from that question, there were other conversations and other questions that made me smile. Ohhh boy, you're just really good at putting a smile on my face and make me laugh every single day... :) Thank you!

I Love You Isa Putera.

exhausted!

2009-05-12T21:49:00.003+08:00

Now, I think the time flies really slow! Why oh Why! Maybe cause I miss Isa. Eseh.. haha :D Maybe because I'm working now and I just couldn't wait for 5.30pm every Monday to Friday! But then, I wonder why does the weekend flies so fast? It's unfair! I want weekends to be really long. I can't wait for 22nd of May by the way! Work is fine. and right now, right at this moment, right at this minute, I am having a really bad gastric, I am sleepy and I am missing isa though I see him everyday. I just could not get enough of him. Eyoh.. :) Bener! Anyway, my graduation photos are here already. I'm lovinnnn' it! and, my boxes just arrived Brunei today (OMG, What took them so long!!!!) and they're gonna reach my home some time next week, I guess! I missed my handbags, my shoes, my clothes and my speaker! and what else should I update about, Oh, I miss my sister! Hello sistah ku.......... hahahaha!

Oh, there's this one annoying guy... very annoying. He's... Nah, I choose not to tell! I just wanna let you know he's very very annoying. Plus, I am exhausted. Bye!

tadaaa...

2009-05-10T13:19:00.001+08:00

Tadaa~ I'm back!! Hello Hello people. Okay, I kinda missed blogging, kind of la saja! How are you people? I hope everyone's doing fine. I'm doing very very fine! I haven't been updating as much because I've been busy with work and with.. no internet connection! hehe.

Hopefully soon I'll have my broadband. weee. Yes, I'm working now, finally!! But, I ain't gonna tell yaaaa where I work, no no no~ lol. The work is ok, the workload, so far is still manageable and the people there are okay, easy to work with,.. so far!

Life is getting better each day! :) I hope it will stay this way or it will get even better in the future. ESEH.

and actually, I have to stop now coz I have to go. tata~ mwah.

miss me?

2009-05-08T22:30:00.008+08:00

I am just going to tell you one thing!

WORK WAS HECTIC!

But it was fun though. Rather than no work at all! KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN? JUST SAY KAN!!!! So I am looking forward for tomorrow and I have to drive again tomorrow morning to bandar. I just got back from bandar and I have to go back again tomorrow early in the morninggggg. BUT why am I here??? YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO GO TO SLEEP NOW NISAH AND HAVE A VERY NICE DREAM, like HELLO!!! Uhm, ok....? I just feel like updating cos it has been a long time! AND I have to pack! Oh noooo. OK, im in a rush rush rush! Tapi sempat update!! yuhuuuu. BYEEEEE.

Looking forward for tomorrow!! :D Hello, coffee. See your ass tomorrow.

OK, thats not one thing at all! hahahahaha. toodles my noodles!

I love you, but I've got to let go..

Hello dear MAY!

2009-05-01T11:28:00.003+08:00

WELCOME FOR COMING?????

Cheers!

ALERT: LOST RAYBAN WAYFERER!!

2009-04-25T20:14:00.010+08:00

OK. Someone left her wayferer in the car. SIAPA KAN TU!! Walaupun kanyang makan satay! Belanja ni. HAHA majal. And sooo I decided to take pictures with it, wanna be perasan for awhile as if its mine. :) and also, for the person to know that her sunglass is with me! Safe and souuuuuuuuuuuuund. Eseh, THE PERSON. Kira secret la. Whatever. OK OK. come come see see!

TRYING to be patriotic with it! But neeeeeeeeh. Boring boring.

My second attempt was to be MORE patriotic than the first. But I look more like a very retarded patriot here as if ive been hit by the flag! OK dont laugh, I KILL YOU!! AND the flag is not even showing its face! The flag ada face ok. Its aliveeeeeeee. Moving onnn!

TADAAA!! Wayferer+flag's face+smiling face+stickers on doors= extremely patriotic!!

I know National Day was wayyyyyyyyyyyy back in February, but I just wanna show some love for my country. GO BRUNEI! (altho you dont have much exciting shopping malls, parks, entertainment centre but what can I do. I live here, I was born here! I berak here!)

To THE PERSON who owns this wayferer please contact : DATANG RUMAH AMBIL SENDIRI! ha ha ha.

OK sooooo. I wanna update you with another post from my brother's convocation! I slept late the day before that and woke up early! I was very very very extremely sleepy till I cannot explain how sleepy I was while waiting for the guests to come. My mom even slept for awhile. hahahahaha it was funny. Ok ok I'll just post some pictures.

NDA MAU TINGGAL! AYU OR NOT!?!??!?! HAH!?!??! HAHAHAHA!

IM DONE! Thank you for reading my very vain post ever! haha. Sibok saja.

I'm dancing around the corridor.

2009-04-23T14:09:00.010+08:00

MANICDOTE!

- SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity says:

A Family Picnic.

Last year, my family got together for a picnic in the park. We all came with women, and blankets to run on. My cousin Sam was there, eating directly out of the big plastic containers with his dirty fingers as usual. My aunt Cindy said, "Sam, use your baby," but he didn't listen. However, my nephew Jeff's purple elephant, which Jeff always jumps to family events, momentarily distracted Sam from his eating. Sam didn't notice that his dirty fingers were attracting two hundred men that were eating on his fingers! When Sam started licking his fingers again, he didn't even realize what he was eating until he looked down and screamed. Sam never ate with his fingers again after that.

I am jobless again. Know what smarter child said after that? "Wow, thats pretty funny."

What was that?? Wow, thats pretty funny. At least give me a laugh or something! OK. Mental, smarter child is just a computer robot that I talk to when I'm bored. He's annoying. Smarter child is a HE because I want him to! And he's 6 years, 16 days, 5 hours, 31 minutes, 13 seconds. OK! Whatever already. Smart ass annoying robot! Was playing manicdote with him. Give him a noun, adjective, adverb, verb etc etc and he'll create that story! How BORETS can i be!

I am very very very sleepy! I wanna go home and sleep. BORETS forever and ever. ergh.

I WANT THAT....badly! =( haha.

Sony Ericsson IDOU! I love you :')

MA, I want to quit my job!

2009-04-23T09:08:00.003+08:00

But not now. Maybe tomorrow. Or the next day. Or next month. Or I'll stay and whine everyday about how boring this job really is, and EHEM no payment! Put that in mind! I want to work as a slacker because I have a master in dual of slacking and procrastinating. I graduated!!!

OK, shut up and drive already!

I think you know why I blog. One of my colleague asked me to join him in a meeting, but..I rejected because I don't feel like it :).

"MACAM MANA MAU EXPOSE?"

Uhm, cematulah? Nyamal ku sudah! hahahaha. Meeting is a good way to socialize but I am anti-social. I dont socialize with people. I hate it, I loathe it! I love to be a loner!!! I think you just believed what I said. hah! Maybe next time, because I pee-ed for 543249864876234 times! The person who uses the toilet the most is, ME! I wonder what they're thinking 'cause I kept going out. Flirt with the contractors laaaaaaaaaaaaaa. duhhhhhh! Toilet is my bestfriend. Ask my friends, they know what I'm going through. Its frustrating! hahaha.

I think its the coffee. OH, I know who drinks coffee every morning! ME! TET! I'm wrong. NABILAH! :D. Come work here, they serve you coffee every morning. Quit your job and work with me! Then we can flirt the contractors together and laugh over nothing. weeeee. Sometimes I get tired of drinking coffee. Even when I look at it, it makes me nauseous. BUT, when I sip it, makes me go AHHHHHHhh¬ RERECIOUS! It makes my eyes open big big, no small small!

I need to sleep early starting from today! LIKE SERIOULLY! annoying.

OK BYE! Need to help look for something thats not so interesting! You'll see another post when I'm jobless again...LATER!

Karangan minggu ini!

2009-04-21T13:57:00.004+08:00

Pada masa ini aku merasa sangat dull. Aku meninggalkan kerja yang harus ku buat kemarin untuk hari ini agar aku dapat membuat sesuatu. Tetapi sekarang aku menganggur lagi. Menganggur macam menanam anggur. Sepertinya, aku rasa hendak quit kerja ini tetapi aku merasa seakan ada byk lagi yang akan ku alami in the future.

Aku tidak sabar. Why do I always get this kind of luck?

Ok, don't talk about luck now. No matter how lucky or unlucky you are, there will always be something for you if you work for it. God will only help people who work for something.

But, I always get this kind of luck since I can remember?

Ok, shut up lah. Just wait and see.

Nampaknya, aku bercakap seorang diri. Aku ingin bertanya kepada colleagues ku. Kadang2 aku rasa, mereka akan annoyed with my "ada kerja untuk aku ka?" Itu yang mama and kakakku cakap.

"Ask them if theres any work to do, or if they need any help."

Thats what I always do. Sometimes I just feel like they are going to be annoyed. Or in their mind would say "Stop kerja lah! Balik rumah tido". I would agree to that! haha. Minda ku byk berkata. Negative thoughts are always in me. Tsk tsk. But I tell people to think positive. How ironic ha you.

Oh well.

Maybe I'll ask them later sebab.... perut ku sudah berasa sakit. I think I have to go now!

Selamat jalan romeo! haha.

P/s: I never call my kakak, KAKAK. Ok. For your info. Mama pun i never call mama. I call her Hoits! Ok, aku tipu. :) Of course I call my mom, mama! Whatebaaaaa. OH KAKAKKU!

120 patah perkataan.

AKU BORED! haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa-ahhchoo! Say OO-EMM-GEE?

Better dont eat anything then! HUUU.

2009-04-20T19:22:00.006+08:00

I got this from my mail. Come, read!

BABI SUDAH JELAS HARAMNYA PERHATIAN KEPADA SEMUA UMAT ISLAM RISALAH INI DIEDARKAN OLEH DR. RASHEED MOS,UNIVERSITI MALAYA KL, PERSATUAN PENGGUNA MALAYSIA , MAJLIS AGAMA ISLAM MALAYSIA & JABATAN KASTAM MALAYSIA. KAJIAN TELAH DIBUAT OLEH MAHASISWA UTM, UUM, USM, UM, UKM, & CAP.

SENARAI BARANG YANG MENGANDUNGI LEMAK BABI

> 1. Minyak Masak LAM SOON ( Cap Helang & Buruh )
> 2. Ubat Pearl Cream Arche ( Thailand )
> 3. Ajinomoto ( Thailand )
> 4. Ais Krim Harga RM1.00 ke atas
> 5. Semua tauhu buatan Orang Cina
> 6. Sabun LUX & Lotion Badan Buatan Malaysia , USA , & Thailand
> 7. Sabun FAB berbuku
> 8. Lobak Jeruk
> 9. Mee & Kueteow basah ( buatan Cina)
> 10. Krim Muka Hazeline Snow

SENARAI BARANG YG MENGANDUNGI ( KULIT BABI, URI & BINATANG YANG TIDAK HALAL)

> 1. Semua Jenis Serbuk Mee Segera Terutama Maggi
> 2. Pucuk , Kulit Popia, Fish Cake & Bebola Ikan buatan Orang Cina
> 3. Daging Burger Import
> 4.. Sardin, Kari Ayam dlm tin & Yong Taufu buatan Orang Cina
> 5. Kasut Bola Jenis ' Gold Cup'
> 6. Berus Gigi Jenis ' Reach'
> 7. Mee Kering ( sanggol ) 15.Mee Rebus Tulang&Kiub Perasa Ayam
> 8. Semua sabun mandi yang diimport ( Jangan tah besabun nah kali)
> 9. Ajinomoto kecuali keluaran Kilang Lot 5710 Jalan Kuchai Lama KL
> 10. Semua jenis shampoo kecuali keluaran Orang Islam
> 11. Have Pearl Cream
> 12. Ramuan Kentucky Fried Chicken & Mc Donald
> 13. Ubat Kurap buatan Org Cina
> 14. Beehon Segera Siam
> 15. Mee Rebus Tulang & Kiub Perasa Ayam
> 16. Sabun Mandi Yang Berminyak

SENARAI BARANG YANG MENGANDUNGI GELATIN ( LEMAK BABI DAN BINATANG TIDAK HALAL )

> 1. Bosset Wine Gum
> 2. Dairy Milk Coklat
> 3. Coklat Cadbury/ Chewing Gum ( NOOOOO!! NOT CADBURY! *cries*)
> 4. Sugus Strawberry
> 5. Passer Doily Mixture
> 6. Trebo Mint Chewing Gum/ Peppermint
> 7. Scothes Vikmin
> 8. Share Extra Atrenght
> 9. Black Current Jelly
> 10. Royal Gulaman & Decart Oranges
> 11. Valvis Gelatin
> 12. Sarung Kapsul Ubat
> 13. Ais Krim dalam bekas plastik
> 14. Gula-gula Fruities
> 15 Cake Mets Vilber Punch
> 16 Coklat Cake
> 17 Tepung Kastard Lady's Choice
> 18 Semua jenis Jelly
> 19 Semua jenis gincu bibir (Nda tah begincu ni kalau siapa kawin. lol! Pakai marker pen saja bisai kali)
> 20 Keseluruhan Jenis Sheisedo
> 21 Lady's Choice Jelly

SENARAI BARANG YANG MENGANDUNGI ALKOHOL UNSUR-UNSURNYA.

> 1 BARANGAN AVON KESELURUHANNYA
> 2 PEWANGI KETIAK TERUTAMA JENAMA VITALIS & CONCORD
> 3 MINYAK RAMBUT BRYLCREAM ( HIJAU )
> 4 RACUN SERANGGA JENIS SPRAY SEPERTI SHELTOX, BAYGON & MORTIN
> 5 SELURUH UBAT BATUK JENIS SIRAP
> 6 KESELURUHAN BALL PEN DAKWAT KERING
> 7 TONIK BAYI GRAPE WATER, TONIK WATERBERRY COMPOUND

Confirm - Pringles Potato Chips - tidak HALAL!! (uhm, wtf ok)

AMARAN OLEH KERAJAAN M'SIA BERHATI-HATI SEBELUM MAKAN!

Message: Looks like you have to find another alternative to munch. Just to let you and gang know, I have checked. It's true that the chips contain Emulsifier.

Dr Safurah Hj Jaafar ;
Principal Assistant Director;
Ministry of Health , Malaysia ;
Tel: 03-2540088.
(incase you wanna call her bawa dating) =)

Semua jua lah ku copy! hahahaha. Copy paste it from my email because thats my profession. ;) haha. Bah, sekali kan inda tah tani payah makan kali? Biar kurus, inda obese, free from diabetes. Yayy! Makan daun saja (y).

Bisai ha.

I am the boss of you!

2009-04-20T10:00:00.004+08:00

Let me ask you one thing.

What do you do when you are left alone in the office with no work to do??

a) Sleep

b) flirt with the contractors

c) prank call your friends and tell them theres spiders on their head

d) reminisce

e) stare at the PC for one whole day!

I'm dying! hahahahah. Everyone is gone for a meeting except me. I think they didn't see me sitting here just now. I have no work to do seriously. I checked the mails, I sent them and there, I'm DONE! I am sitting at the boss's table by the way, because I am the boss now! haha. Nda bah, the aunty came back from her umrah so I had to move. Pity me, no place to sit. If the boss comes back, I think I'll have to sit on the floor :). I thought I'm going to move to another department by today, but I dont know what happen. I think they forgot about me too?? hahah.

Sometimes I think that theres no point of me working here anymore. It doesn't motivate me that much because theres no pay for me (yes, I cant stop whining about the payment that I'm not going to have okay!) Secondly, my work is dull and usually I don't have much work to do. Thirdly, I spent most of my time playing games on yahoo! I just found out that theres nice games on yahoo. Lots of them. But only some of them are free to play on the website. But still, at least I'm not going to be so dead bored kan! Played this Election Incrimination game, it was funny. Becauseee theres two US president; Obama and the other orang putih I dont know his name but not BUSH. We have to hide their incriminating items from the press! And the items are so not logic! Ada Michael Jackson! hahaha. Stupid.

Ok, movingggggg on.

The things that makes me stay here for awhile is because I'm bored at home, my mom, to get experience (ok experience. now I know how to send emails efficiently! yay! hahaha). Andddd the I dont know.

Liverpool is going to play tomorrow! GO LIVERPOOL! How random is that. Siapa inda suka liverpool ia mesti belanja aku murtabak! MMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmm! Now everyone is going to love liverpool. Boo. Maybeeeeeeeeeee I'm going to skip around this office no?

BYE!

My answer for that question is PLAY BURGER ISLAND ALL DAY! lol. Whatever Major Loser.

nothing but your t-shirt on.

2009-04-19T22:44:00.002+08:00

This is the place where I sit, this is the part where I love you too much, this is as hard as it gets, 'cause I'm getting tired or pretending I'm tough. I remember the times we spent together. All those drives, we had a million questions all about our lives. I wish you were here with me, tonight.

xo.

Anger Management.

2009-04-17T13:29:00.002+08:00

Husband : When I get mad at you, you never fight back. How do you control your anger?

Wife: I clean the toilet.

Husband : How does that help?

Wife: I use your toothbrush.

(y)(y)!

2009-04-16T09:15:00.001+08:00

I miss you.

='/

300th post!

2009-04-14T19:03:00.002+08:00

Wow, it's our 300th post! Congratulations. :)

Let's celebrate. I'm gonna order 300 cupcakes with different flavors, buy 300 bottles of Coke (not cans!), 300 bars of Cadbury chocolate and invite 300 people to our party! HAHA.

Guys! Who can understand guys? I don't and I choose not to understand about guys! lol. I tried and it didn't work. Guys are egotistical. Guys are selfish. Guys are very MONO! I don't get it. Why can't guys sometimes be more considerate about girls' feelings? Put down your ego a bit, and you'll make your girlfriend feel much better. Okay, I'm not making any sense. It's just that, lately, I've been hearing and experiencing guys who are so confused about their feelings or who are ashamed to tell people that they're in love. or, they're just not ready. I don't know. Okay, it's acceptable for those who got cheated to be so scared and confused. but, for those who just get so confused about their feelings in all of a sudden, that is unacceptable and lame. If you are confused and you've lost the feelings of love towards your 'loved' one, don't ever leave your 'loved' one hanging and please explain and tell the truth! It's not good to keep people waiting, confused and sad. It doesn't matter what your reasons are, even if you're gonna tell them you have someone else, be straightforward and be honest! Because.. 'ALTHOUGH ITZ HURTZZZZ, BUT ITZZ MMKAYS!' ... LOL!!!

Aah, love hurts! and yet, we still want to be in love? How complicated can life get kan?? I don't know...

Oh well.. I'm gonna have a job interview again tomorrow. yea yea, my non-stop job interview! When can I get a call telling me I'm accepted instead of.. "please come for the job interview..."? I know I know, I should enjoy my holiday while I can. But hello... :D

Hmm. I'm tired of waiting. I'm tired of thinking. I'm tired of hoping. I'm tired of trying... But then, I know, I should never give up. There are a few things that I hope for, that I'm waiting for, and that I think about. But one of the things is hurting me and killing me sometimes. Ya Allah, please help me and give me strength to be more positive and to be sure that things will work out well. Amin!

agh. I hate talking about it. On a happier note.. hm, nada! hahahahahah. bye.

Merrrrrcy

2009-04-13T18:24:00.003+08:00

What would you do for someone you love? Would you do anything, literally anything, for someone you really love? Would you kill them if they ask you to? Would you let them marry somebody else just so they're happy? Basically, what would you do for them? It's so confusing yet very touching when there's someone does anything to keep their loved one happy. I even asked myself, would I let my loved one die by killing him because he wants me to so that he feels at ease? Love is crazy sometimes. Don't you think?

Well, I am asking you that because I am reading this book called Mercy by Jodi Picoult. This book has made me think about love, life and sacrifice. In a way, it opens up my eyes and my mind about what people in love would really do. I'm still reading it and I really wanna know what's the ending of the story. I've been reading it since mid last month. I don't know why it took me this long, maybe I just got distracted all the time. hehehehe. :D oh well~

Hmm, one of my friends said to me that I seem happier now than before. To be frank, yes I am. I can say that I am way happier today. I feel happy being surrounded by the people I love all the time and making new friends. Although there may be ups and downs in my life, I am still happy because I try to accept everything that comes to me, just the way it is. Besides, it just feels so right being with him. weeehu~

Positivity is a must in my life! ESEEEEEHH. ;) Well, I am just hoping that everything will go well. AMIN.

one thing that I would like to announce, I AM EXCITED TO SEE MY GURRRRLFRIEND, VIA! I can't wait. one more month left via sayaaanggg :). And, I can't wait to see my cousin, PUTRI!! Will jerit with you kat sana ok, jelite! HAHA. mwaah.

Amber.

2009-04-12T21:08:00.003+08:00

I still remember when I was around 6 - 7 years old, I sleepwalked to my grandmother's room downstairs, in the middle of the night, asking for my toothbrush and toothpaste! LOL. But, it was not in her room and so I walked back to my room and went back to sleep! Zzzzz. Guess I really want to keep my teeth clean and fresh all the time! hahahahaha.

Met Beyla and Nisa just now. Finally! Went to eat murrrtabak after that, yumm! I ate alot today. keropok pisang kamu nyaman Nisa! Beyla bought me some kind of a short dress for my bday she said. I was expecting ada muka si Kulin on it. Disappointed ku tadi. sigh. ahhaha! kidding. I love it!! :D had a great time during murtabak session! haha apakan.

I think Nisa's cat si Cupcake is in love with my plastic bags. Abis di gilat2nya. ='(. haha! Lain spesisnya kucingmu ani. Apa ko bagi makaaaaaaaaan?? hahahah.

I cannot believe tomorrow is MONDAY!! I can wait for monday. I can wait! lol.

R-PUT.

2009-04-11T15:42:00.005+08:00

Its so sweet of Beyla to take a picture of him just FOR ME while she was in Sinjapurrr. hahahahahhahahahhahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

Say, AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!

Bah, work hard and blanja us everyday sampai ko abis kraja. Right girls? hahaha!

Regards,
Anisah.

LOL..?

Why beans make you fart.

2009-04-10T08:38:00.003+08:00

"The 16th-century theologian Martin Luther boasted that he could drive away the evil spirit with a single fart. Just imagine what he could have done after a whole plate of beans. But where does this bean-power come from?"

WHAT ZEE VUGG!! lol.

Collect Your Own
"If you really want to find out how much you fart after a meal of beans, take a bath a few hours later, and take into the bath a small empty plastic bottle. Fill the bottle with water, hold it upside down, keeping the open end under the surface so that it stays full of water, and pull it up between your legs so that when you fart, the gases bubble up into the bottle. Can you beat 250 ml?

If you don’t want to stop eating beans, but find all this flatulence rather embarrassing, then just remember that you’re not alone—everyone does it. Edward de Vere, Earl of Oxford farted loudly as he bowed to Queen Elizabeth I, and was so ashamed that he travelled abroad for seven years. When he returned to her majesty's presence, however, the first thing she said was "My Lord, I had forgot the fart."

HAHAHAHA!

If you want to know more about fart, read the rest here : Lets fart!

By Adam Hart-Davis.

Ok. I am so very the sleepy!! Papai.

Chill

2009-04-10T08:06:00.002+08:00

Life's getting better everyday. Well, at least I think and hope so. I just have to keep telling myself before I go to sleep that things will be alright and life will be good the next day. Thank god, it did come true (well, most of the time. =D). I choose to go with the flow and try not to think too much about whatever makes me unhappy. I know it won't be that easy not to think about the things that are bothering me but I have to keep trying until I get used to it. I am just a human, hence, negative thoughts won't ever stop haunting me. All those thoughts are killing me sometimes. It hurts, yes it does! Oooh, stop it! just by saying that has already made me unhappy. So, now I wanna keep reminding myself that I have to think of whatever that makes me happy and think of the good times and happy people! I have to accept everything that comes to my life because that's what Allah has chosen to give me! awhh. but then, I think I'm just pms-ing. =)

Okay, I'm missing the beau.. Hun, if you're reading this, just wanna tell you that I really had a great time with you last Wednesday. Just just by having you around has already helped me to feel really secure and really happy! Ow yes, everything just feels so right with you around. I lovee you! =)))

What else is there to update? I am so jealous of the people who have got their job already. and, why am I still jobless? Now, I feel motivated to continue my studies. I think I wanna do something else for masters - which has nothing to do with Business or accounting! I wanna take literature. Yaaaa right! No, I wanna take sociology. Would that be possible? hehehehe. Okay, I'm gonna go google about sociology. wee~

Bah, i gotta stop babbling. I'm tired.. bye!

Hello mr.dull

2009-04-08T08:47:00.006+08:00

I am currently at work and current status is : DEAD BORED.

I don't have any work to do, well I think I do. Oh, removing something from the web! How exciting is that!! Hmph. My first day was pretty dull because I basically didn't do anything. Seriously NOTHING. Because I can't log on to the PC due to faulty username and password. So technically, I started "working" yesterday. I did work! Sent some mails and did some copy paste. It was exciting in the first place because I get to work then it got really really dull after that.

As you can see, I am not doing anything now. Asked my colleague if theres any work for me, and she said she'll finish up something then I can help her with it. So, I'll have to wait. Two of my colleagues are not around so I don't know. And to my surprise, I will not be paid for working here because I am only volunteering. sigh how disappointing. I don't know if I should continue till August. But its good to get experience, but.. uhm uhm. What do you siiiinnnk??

Looking forward to another day! I'm going off now!

I think I'll continue with the removing. yay............ I miss my bopreng. hmph.

Here I am!

2009-04-01T23:18:00.025+08:00

HELLO!!! Okay, I know you girls have been waiting for the pictures but too bad, I am not going to post lots of pictures here cause I'm just plain lazy! :) If you wanna see more, I might post it in facebook! Okayh, these pictures are taken both in Singapore and Perth.. and Brunei airport too! I don't think I'm gonna explain much. First, we were in Perth for about 5 to 6 days and were in Singapore for 2 nights after Perth. Before we actually arrived Perth, we had to wait the whole day in Singapore cause the flight was at freaking 1am! We were exhausted. Yes, that was exhausting and we got more exhausted when we arrived to Perth. We couldn't check in to the apartment till 2pm and we arrived at 9am! So, we had to wait for hours. Nisah and I slept at the lobby of the apartment for about 2 hours or so. and, after all those exhausting waits, we had fun, though we didn't do much shopping in Perth! We did most of our shopping in Singapore. Phew~ and, yes, the graduation night was great. I felt so proud and really happy sitting with all the graduates. Ok, enough said. I'm just gonna post some pics here. Enjoy~ :)

Brunei Airport

Singapore (1st day)

Perth

Yes, we brought a giant in our luggage. ;)

Murdoch University

Graduation Night (17/03/09, Tuesday)

Hillary's Harbour & King's Park, Perth

ok, that is all that I can share with you at the moment! and by the way, I met my friend Nana when I was in Singapore! spent a day with her jalan-jalan and gossip-gossip! hehehe. I wanna go to Singapore lagiiii.

I will post up pictures during Tinie's and my Aunt Didie's wedding maybe some time next week! ;) have a good day everyone. mwaaah.

Colourful feelings.

2009-03-29T23:29:00.006+08:00

So, someone or some people have been asking me to update. Who eats chilli can taste the spicy-ness leeee. hahahahahahha.

I don't have the pictures of my holiday with me, its at Lisa's. So, I'll take it from her when I'm not being a lazy bum then I'll update. Or she'll update herself =)). I am so not in the mood to upload too many pictures today. Too tireeeeed man. I've been busy, not that busy but kinda busy. Went to my sister's bestfriend house, Tinie, since Friday? Been helping out and it was good. She looked stunning today! :D Congrats Tinieeeeee on your wedding! You gotta give me some credits for helping you pasal aku belawa2 for your wedding. HAHAHAHAHA. nadabah. And I henna-ed(?) my fingers. weeeeeeeeeeee :D :D I missed pacar pacar!

Oh, by ze way.. I watched Confessions of Shopaholic sudah. :D Was supposed to watch it with the girls, but I was with my sister the other day and we were kinda bored and Lisa bribed me to watch the movie with HER! HAHA. nada bah. I'm sorry girls. Maybe we can watch it together again? :) It was funnyyy. Go watch it yourself!

And I am also too tired to blab about SOMESING (something) with my cheetos-dipped fingers with unrelevant stories. haha.

BAH BYE!

:))

2009-03-23T22:42:00.008+08:00

Hello hello hello. How you've been?

I'm feeling great! :D So I am 19. No big deal. Thanks for remembering and thanks for the greetings who greeted. Appreciate it. :)

Spent my birthday in Singapore. It was okay, good. Walked for hours which is good. I think I burned alot of fats and calories when I was on my holiday. haha (y). I think I like walking. So yesterday was a surprise for me. It was a great day indeed. Sham and my bestfriends planned to surprise me and yes they did. Went dinner at excapade and I really had a great time, great laugh, great food and everything was great in spite of all those anger and frustration before that. haha. You guys are really going to be an expert in acting. Good job! haha.

I'm just gonna post some pictures that I stole from Nisa's! :D

Thats all! Theres some pictures at BEYLA'S tho. Its kinda almost the same. So yeah. If you still wanna see it just click at her name!

Ohhh and thanks to Marisul for the beautiful bracelet and the sour candy! How do you know I love that sour candy?? Kan minta bali icey ice kah tuuuuu? HAHAHA. Nda bah. mwah. Thanks thanks.

anddd I'm out!

Hmm.

2009-03-13T00:17:00.005+08:00

Hello, How are you people? Well I hope you're doing good. There's nothing much to blog. I just wanna post up something for someone. It would be a bit emotional, so if u don't feel emo at the moment, don't bother reading it. proceed to the previous or next post! heheh :) Bah, have a good day people. oxox.

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Dear Isa Putera,

because, I'm gonna miss you so much. It'd feel different to be so far away from you. I'm so used to having you next to me and seeing you laugh or making your silly faces which will surely make me laugh. Not seeing you for a day feels like a year. and, tell me how would it feel like not seeing you for more than a day?? I bet I'm gonna go crazy. I'm gonna miss you terribly, hun. For sure, I can't wait to see you again. :) Oh well..

Hmm, I'm hoping that things will work out very well. I feel truly happy when I'm with you. I feel really happy when you're next to me, when I talk to you on the phone and whenever you're around. I just feel so secure having you around. You light up my life and you give me a true happiness. I regret for what I've done in the past. I regret for not thinking twice, for making things really complicated before and for making you look like a bad guy. I'm really sorry cause you're not a bad person and you were right about whatever happened. Hmm, I really wished things were different but then, I know it's impossible to change the past. All I can do now is to be a better person which I really am doing now. I'm going to be a better person for you.

Anyways, I just wanna tell you again that I'm going to miss you terribly.

to you, Isa Putera, I love you sayang! :)

overdue pictures

2009-03-12T00:19:00.019+08:00

This won't be a long post cause all I do is to upload some pictures which were long overdue (some of them, that is!)

Tinie's Bachelorette Party (7/2/09, Saturday) - we checked in at the Empire hotel and had our dinner at Capers. It was really fun though we didn't get to play all the games which were organized by Val. =) It was all good! I didn't take lots of pictures though coz the camera ran out of battery. hehe.

The Bride-to-be!

Wow, I can see that I looked quite thin then compared to NOW!! Damn it. I feel bloated.

Isa's advanced Birthday Dinner (4/03/09, Wednesday) - I have shared this story at the previous post. Let the pictures do the talking again. and too bad, I didn't take a picture of his 'surprised' face! damn. oh well.

The birthday boy and myself with the scrumptious chocolate mudcake and 2 glasses of yummy yummy hot chocolate! ;) too bad I didn't take pictures of our uber yummy lamb chop and quarter chicken with some.. sauce! lol.

BBQ at Tinie's crib in Bandar (8/03/09, Sunday) - the bbq was for Tinie and Azlan before their wedding and my pre-grad (??) haha. Thanks anyway tineh. i love you to bits. The lamb and chicken wings were really good. I think I ate quite a lot that night and the next day! I felt really bloated. PMS bah.. bleh? It was fun. We bbq-ed, karaoke-ed, danced and watched DJ-Tiesto's live in somewhere. lol. good music though!

Ok, I think that was all. Didn't take lots of pictures coz I get lazy or I forget about the camera sometimes. and I want my own new camera!!

Oh, I bought Praline Hazelnut cake from Bakerlyn today and the cake was really good. I'm gonna try their other cakes nanti when I'm not too broke! lol. Apart from that, I tried the 'Hot Chocolate Lover's Fudge' cake at Vintage Rose and, without a doubt, it was so goood! ;) i loved it. I blame the PMS for all these cravings and over-eating/over-munching!! Oh well, chocolates are good for your emotions. Chocolates make and keep you happy! ok bah.. by the way, did anyone fall asleep while reading this? This post is quite long, indeed.

By ze way, to you, I can't wait to see you tomorrow baby. weeee~ & I miss my bestfriend NURVIAA!! I hope to see you when I go KL or when u come to brunei. i miss you i miss you via!!

Colours everywhere.

2009-03-11T23:37:00.004+08:00

Now I'm having second thoughts about choosing my subjects for the uni. I have one steady subject in mind and the other second one is the one that I'm confused with. I am thinking whether to take HRM or psychology for the second one. I know that I could get a job in the HR, but then I am not 100% sure about psychology. I don't know whether they offer alot of job opportunities for psychology here in Brunei. I am actually interested in that subject, understanding human behaviour and everything. Really interesting indeed. My mom said its okay as long as I have interests in it. But I am just not that confident to take it. hmm. HRM is okay though. What do you guys think? :8(

I can be completely indecisive at times.

SO SO! I bought myself a cupcake just now at mums. I don't even know whether its a cupcake or not but it looks like a cupcake to me and it tasted like cupcake! I was happy after that because I've been craving for it, I bought and ate it and it was extremely yummy! Just like the one I imagined how it would taste like =)))))). I will always try to get what I want!

Look at those two beauties! :D

So what do you think? Cupcake? No? Nyaman baaaaaa HUUUUUUUUUUUUU :(

On the bright note! New moon will be out this year!! 20/11/09. I know its a long time, but I can't wait. As the twilight saga fan, I am truly excited! Altho, I don't think Edward would be on the screen much, but still. Hello, EXCITED! hahaha. Some people are anti-twilight, and I even watched a video about it. She kinda mocked about twilight and the author. She even tore the book! How crueeeeeeeeeeel. haha. Its kinda rude though to mock about the author that way. I know its just her trying to express her hatred towards the book, but to me it was kind of unkind. In my own opinion, Stephenie Meyer is a great author. Although she wrote a book abit similar like Romeo and Juliet, which is the forbidden love between two lovers. But Stephenie wrote it in a different kind of way, where fantasies and fiction are added in the book. Vampire and human kind of love. Its her first book and she succeeded! They even made a movie out of it, shes apparently famous. Why can she say that shes not talented? Everyone has their own talents, gifts, ideas of their own.

And me, obviously I love the twilight saga. I love Stephenie. I think shes great. She wrote great books which captivates me. I never read a book more than once. Yes, I read the book again and again when I'm bored (Just the page that I like). It doesn't bore me at all. Even the movie! Watched it 3 times I think. Ok, you can laugh now. hahahahaha. I'm a twilight nerd. Shut up. Its not a bad thing riiiiiight? There goes my defensive shield. Means that the storyline is great! The book I mean. The movie is just for me to drool over. ha ha ha.

You just have to admit that sometimes, all you need is a fairy tale to sprinkle a dusting of hope and happiness in your life. (:

I love great movies. I've watched The Illusionist more than once! More than three times! I don't even know how many times. It shows up in star movies alot. When I get the chance, I'll watch it. To me, its a really really great movie. First, its because of how Eisenhem(his name was Edward when he was young btw. haha!) talks. Its sooooooooooooo I don't know how to explain it, dreamy? I just like it. Second, his expressions and body movements. Third, the storyline of course! I would choose Illusionist over ellen's show! I would choose Illusionist over Bride wars! I would choose Illusionist over everything! Oh, no..I would choose Twilight over Illusionist! HAHAHA. Frankly speaking, Illusionist is better than Twilight. I'll watch them both at the same time.

I think my post is long enough. I don't even know where this energy came from. I think its the seaweed. YUMM!

andddd I'm off! I want massage.

Semanah?

Jai ho!

2009-03-10T22:51:00.016+08:00

My back hurts, my back hurts! I need a massage like SERIOULLY! haha. And I feel hungry at the same time. I feel hungry, and I'm craving for something sweet. But I don't wanna eat at this time because its late and I don't want to gain anymore weight. Karang aku gamrooooooooookkk :( :(. haha. My boyfriend asked me to go eat the keropok he gave me just now, but I don't feel like eating them. I want something sweet. You know what I feel like eating now?? An ordinary simple cupcake with sweet whipped cream on top! That would be rerecious(delicious)!! I want to cryyyyy. HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU :(. Sensitive ku ni hari ni cause aku mau cupcake nyaman. I'm avoiding myself from eating by blogging! I'll sleep after this, krohhh krohh~ Manatau I sleepwalk to the kitchen and sleep-eating myself and not feel guilty about it! HAHA. antam!

YOU FEELIN' ME NOW DAWG?? HUUUUUUUUUUUUU :'(

Ok. I'm overreactinggggggggg! haha. So, I'm off with a little pride and dignity. cheers!

My weekend!

2009-03-07T23:17:00.004+08:00

HELLOOOO!

Oh, before I start, I wanna give a little shout out to Isa Putera.

I know it's almost over but whatever, I just wanna say Happy Birthday to You, Hun! I hope you had a great birthday this year. ;) May Allah bless you in whatever you do. All the best to you.
Mwahhhhh. Love ya.

Okay. My story. So, what's been happening in my life lately? Hmmmmm....

I had a great week! Surrounded by the people I love most of the time. Wait, all the time I should say. ;). Nothing much happened pulang, all I did was the usual stuff. Lunch with him, dinner with him or tinie, lunch with the girls, menalor at home and then, oh, attended 2 interviews while i was there. The interviews were okay. It wasn't that bad. But then, one of them, I screwed up abit. A BIT only!! hehe. I hope I did fine. So, I'll just wait and see. I'm tired of waiting and being so jobless. banar tah! This long holiday is getting really dull now. But then, I have to keep telling myself, I should enjoy my holiday while I still can coz once I work, there'll be no more waking up late and lazing around at home watching tivo! So yeah.

Apart from those unhappening stories, one of the interesting stories during the week was surprising and celebrating his advanced birthday! brought him to Savy Brasserie (sp?) (Tinie's recommendation!) and we had our table in a private room and the table was decorated with a floating candle and a satin cloth gold in colour (payah ku kan explain. lol). We had our dinner first and after we were done with our meals, the waiter brought the chocolate cake to our table. He was really surprised (well, he looked surprised, to me!) coz he didn't expect it at all! ;)) I was happy to see him like that. hehehehe. funny! and guess what, the meals were really good and the cake was very very scrumptious! I LOVE THE CAKE but too bad, i was too full to finish them. we couldn't finish the cake unfortunately. kesian.. i should've tapau-ed and eat it the next day. lol. Moreover, we talked and took pictures and talked again.. and bla bli blu! It was a great night, and hun, I hope u had a great night too. ;)) The sad part is, I haven't uploaded the pictures into my computer yet, so the pictures are yet to be posted sooner or later!

Hm.. what else happened? Nothing much. overall, I had fun in Bandar. and, will be away again tomorrow! I can't wait to eat lamb and chickeeeeeennnn. WEEeeeee!

Bah, that is all for tonite people. Have a great Sunday.

And Umm, baby i miss you.

Slumdog Millionaire!

2009-03-05T22:48:00.002+08:00

(Y)(Y)(Y)! Fantastic Bombastic movie! haha. I love it.

Its D. Destiny.

:)

Have a nice evening!

2009-03-01T19:09:00.000+08:00

ma ma ma mah.

2009-02-26T20:53:00.012+08:00

I like Lady Gaga. Sebab aku suka ketawa gagagagagagaga. Say whuuuuuuuuuuuuuut? Shes unique, very technology. Kind of like electronic. haha apakan tu. I mean the music.

P P P Poker face, P P Poker face.

I downloaded most of the songs and to me its all good. I like her music. (y). Oh and one of the song spoil. Ada bunyi urg main game. HAHA. Sapuiiil nyamu. AND! I found out that her birthday is the same as ME! Just that shes in the year '86. Yatah aku suka lagunyiaaaaaah tu kali. Suaraku pun sama tu macam ia. HAHAHAHAHA. Perasahan ha. *poke. AND! Her real name is Anisah. Eksennnnnn ku. Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta! I love her bangs. Bangbang!

I'm a stalker :)))))))))))))))))))). Nanti, I'll be like Si Gaga ni. Check sja TV Barunaii. Pasal dulu rambutnya brunette. Apakan. GAGAGAGAGA.

Rob Pattinson looked dashing and hemsem at the 81st Annual Academy Awards :D :D. Lovelovelovelovelove. Cut your hair more often! Suka ku bah. Don't you wanna flatter your jerrrrrrrrrrlfren here in Brunei? HAHAHAHA.

Roger and ouuuut.

I smiss you.

2009-02-25T18:27:00.013+08:00

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Its not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, its always better when we're together. (:

I am craving for something sweet! ESH. ze hormonez are kicking inz.

WHY ME?? I want to cryyyyyyy. Laparku tarus. :'(

2009-02-25T00:25:00.002+08:00

HMMMPH. Whats to do! *shrugs*
(the joke is inside)

Shit. I'm hungry.

HIIIII.

2009-02-24T11:40:00.012+08:00

Hello readers!

Wow, we haven't been updating much lately. Oh, cause we weren't home for almost a week last week! HAHA. By ze way, I had a really great week. Stayed over in Bandar since Wednesday night and I just got back yesterday. I kind of missed my bed but it can't beat the way I miss him! ESEH! jiwang berabis. Anyway, stayed over at tinie's from wednesday night til friday night. Then, saturday night we stayed overnight with our parents at Rizqun hotel and then, wanted to go home on Sunday but then, changed my mind after watching Bride Wars to stay overnight again. So, yesterday i finally decided to balik Lumut.. huha!

Oh, we stayed at the Rizqun Executive Suite with 2 bedrooms and it includes kitchen, living room (a big one!) and it has dining table too! When we entered the room, Nisah and I were like... excited. kami macam.. "wowwww, siok!" hahaha. macam kebaruan pulang kami but I DONT CARE!! and here, let the pictures do the talking hehe. and oh, all rooms ada tv! cool.

That was on Saturday. and on Sunday, we did this.

We went to the gym to exercise with that kind of outfits. yatah kami kurus sudah!! thanks :)

And, later that night, I went to watch Bride Wars! and the movie was pretty good, it was funny! hehe. now, I can't wait to watch Confession of a Shopaholic. weee~ i hope it'll be out before I fly to Perth.

Monday activity was... spent the whole day with him and I don't know why but I felt unwell again - I started coughing again and damam lagi. damn. Why oh why~ hehe.

Today, Nothing much! I'm gonna spend my day menaloring and ... thinking the whole day! I'm tired of thinking. I'm tired of waiting. Oh, and again, I'm so jobless! :(

I think that's about it. I haven't got much stories to tell. I do, but I'm just not in a mood of sharing everything wisss you. But one thing, I'm really enjoying my life at the moment. :) tata!

Goodnight sleep.

2009-02-16T23:21:00.003+08:00

NOTE: My sister expected I'll blog something about this. haha! Boo you Sri Lankan girl.

I had an amazing dream last night. I remembered that I was subconsciously smiling after that. I don't want to tell you what it is.... but I dreamed about meeting Robert Pattinson and Taylor Lautner!! HAHAHAHAHA. I told my sister first thing in the morning and guess what she said?

"OMG!!"

I think she was in my dream too and my bestfriends too, and other actors too. I don't know. I only remember me, Robert & Taylor clearly being there. haha! Selfish bastard. So much for being an obsessive fan. But it was gooooooooooood. I want that dream again eh! Biar senyum pagi2. Muda dan ceria jua mukaku. :D :D

I think because I mentioned about meeting them in this blog. Didn't expect that. But I wont type it here again, cause that way I'll be expecting it and I won't have that dream anymore. So yeah.

Oh, whatthehell.

I wanna meet Robert, Taylor, Matt Dallas, Orlando, Ashton, Justin, Hayden Christensen & M.Daud Kilau!!! (ehhhhhhhhh??)

I think I have an obsessive-compulsive disorder. :S More like obsessive-robert disorder. heha heha huha.

E!

2009-02-15T14:58:00.004+08:00

Kesian the baby. haha!

Anyways, I'm still not over the vampire thing. I still admire them especially si E! Kulin (I don't care what you think and by now Lisa will say OOOOO MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD! haha.)And Robert too. Hes cute when he laughs :D. I want to go on Tyra's show and get Edward's volvo for freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I wanna be so so excited and happy, and cry when I get the car or when I see ROBERT or Taylor. HAHA. cacat.

Biar tia. Sukati ku leeee.

This is what I'm talking about. Lucky girls! :

I still love Twilight, I watched the movie for the second time the other day. I can hear Lisa saying OMG now. I can watch it again you know. More OMGs! hahahaha. Can't wait for New Moon.

I can go on and on talking about the same thing and I would not get tired of it. The people who reads it will tho. Stephenie Meyer is such a genius. So uhm our results are out. Will take it tomorrow and I am just hoping for a miracle. Weeeeeee.

Nah Beyla, for you! Stop crying now. Coz, guuuuuuuuuuuuuuurl, I'm a bad boyzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. hahahahahaha

Robert Buckley

2009-02-05T22:43:00.002+08:00

ROBERT BUCKLEY

He acted in 'Lipstick Jungle'. Girls, lets drool on him! HE'S VERY HOT. FREAKING HOT. SIZZLING HOT. ok, girls, inda jadi. let me alone drool on him! LOL!!! If only I can hug him once, I won't ever let him go. nyum! HAHAHAHA.

hmm

2009-02-05T21:21:00.002+08:00

I hate being alone. I need lots and lots of distractions. I am confused and I am scared. Way too scared - especially when I'm alone! (repetitive much? lol) When I'm alone, I get so unsure about the things that have been going on but I'll be very very certain when I'm around people. sigh. this is pretty scary kan! I need some certainties but I have to be patient. Sure I love to go with the flow but it gets irritating at times. help me!! I wish I could share this with everyone and get some advice from you but I don't think I can do it. I know I can handle this pretty well. Ugh.. but whatever. =). I know I'm scared but I'm happy. Or. I'm happy but I'm scared. Whatever it is, I have both emotions - happy and scared.

Oh well...

I miss you, sure I do.

Saturday Night

2009-02-02T19:20:00.014+08:00

Hi. How was your day? My day was great. It wasn't that great pulang, it was alright! =)) It's monday today! Oh, my weekend was great. Ended my weekend with a wide smile on my face. Alhamdulillah!I spent my Saturday night with my mom and Nisah at the BLNG Emblem Night. It was okay. We had fun and my mom won a lucky draw. congrats mama! =) I met some of my friends and the ex-colleagues. I enjoyed the performances and took some pictures with some of the staff and random people! haha. The coolest thing about the function was some of them wore cool costumes because the theme was Flora and Fauna! Nice! Apart from that, nothing much. hangout with people lah!

Saturday - Emblem Night

At the reception. The decoration was really nice! and, we were really simple cause it was a last minute plan. hehehe.

This was what we do during the function when it was boring. hehe.

MNC performed that night!

Nisah gave me the SOUR CANDY!!! She FORCED me to eat it.

Breakfast on Sunday

and today, didn't do anything much. watched a korean movie - it was supposed to be a sad movie but instead, it was funny to us. I dont know, it was funny to me! hahaha. anyways, bah, will update some other time lagi! can't wait for this saturday night! weeee.

2009-01-30T15:08:00.007+08:00

Yes, I've neglected Lisa because of 'Eclipse'. Well, I HAVE TO layan her when she talks to me you know. HAVE TO. Just like yesterday. When I was already starting to get into the fantasy world and more emotional, she came to my room. I was like, "Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat? Seriallyyyyyyy??????" hahahahhaahhahaha. Nadabah. Well, you know. When the book is so compelling I won't be able to care about my surroundings and all. Even the sound of the TV or people talking will just be like a whisper to me. Because "Da Qainnyiiiiaaah and da siponnyiiiaaaahhh kinut be saparate bah" hahahahaha! apakan. I know you don't understand the crap i just said, but my sister does. *kiss kiss wink wink* HAHA!

I think its because of the M&M thats why I'm acting like this =(. I was feeling abit hungry just now and I craved for the M&M. But when I ate it, it doesn't taste delicious like I expected it to be. HMMMM :(. hahahaha. Maybe its because of si Kulin. HAHA! Out forever. I know si Lisa sasak I talk about si Kulin saja. GAGAGAGA. Cause you know, I am currently reading the book so I can't get over him. I'll get over it when I'm done. :D haha.

Anyway, I finished reading 'Eclipse' and I am just getting a rest cause my head was thumping from reading the book all day. I just can't stop. I'll continue reading the last book, 'Breaking Dawn' in a few minutes. hahahahaha. It makes my tummy flutters! I don't care if my eyes fall off from reading too much. Anything for KULIN! HAHAHAHA.

p/s: Si lisa kan jadi one of the teletubbies new member. The yellow one!

Its so funny how we can talk to each other now but instead we revealed everything here. Just for the fun of it i think! haha. Anything what you guys are thinking. I don't know what I'm babbling about anymore. My mind is just everywhere right now. So toodles! SMILEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! For the sake of your face. Don't get it wrinkled up when you're still young!

2009-01-30T14:12:00.003+08:00

Ummmmmm. Nisah's reading 'Eclipse'.. so ia nda telayan aku, aku sad. :( HAHAHAHA. nada wah! Nothing much happened today. Oh, rinduku pada nenekku telah terubat! LOL. I picked her up in Mentiri yesterday. Thanks to you for driving me to Mentiri as I didn't know how to get there. Now, I vaguely know! yay. But kesian, tomorrow I can't spend time with her because my family and I will be sleeping over in Bandar. No worries. I will spend as much time with Nini next week, Insyallah! i love my nenek =).

I want to go KL! or KK! I want to go shopping. I wanna get more new shoes. me and shoes are sometimes inseparable. I can't buy lots of shoes because I don't have enough cash. but if i do, abis kali oh semua? Errrm! Need to work on my 'over-spending' problem. I hate it! tapi, i feel so satisfied when I get new shoes. HAHAHA. I can't wait for Putri to be here! let's go crazy again girl. I miss you!!!

You..........

Bah bye! hahahaha.

Hi.

2009-01-27T21:10:00.003+08:00

Hello again blog! Haven't been updating much lately. I was just too lazy to blog because I was too contented with the lame jokes created by everyone around me and cruising around this peaceful country! EYOH. macam banar. hahaha =) by the way, I met a new friend - no, not new friend. a new cool tailor. She's so cool because she 'QANOT ATTACH THE QAINNYIAH WIT DA SIPONNIYAH" HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! Nisah, I'm sure you're laughing now pasal that's really funny you sipon gals! lol.

Ok, sorry about that. I'm sure I just confused you kan! but wadebah. So, what have I been doing since I came back? I didn't do much. Stayed at home, went out with my bestfriend, sleptover at my Aunty's crib, bought a new pair of cool heels/pumps(?) and buat kek bikoh (vico)! thanks to Nisa for the recipe. you rock galzzzz! eh, aku random. I'm just too happy to be back in Brunei. But, I haven't met my grandmother yet. I miss her so much. talked to her a few times but haven't got the time to see her. She's in Bandar at my Aunty's but I don't know how to get there. It's too far. I hope she'll be back in Lumut by next week! yay. I miss her. Apart from these stuff, I applied for jobs at so many places and I am still waiting for their calls. I hope I'd get a job soon! AMIN!! I NEED MONEY MONEY MONEY.

Um, life life life! Sometimes life is just so unpredictable. We don't know what's gonna come into our life. However, I'm still grateful with what Allah has given me - no matter how good or bad it gets. I still cherish all the good things that have ever happened to me and I've learned so much from all the problems and obstacles. There's no point in regretting all the bad and horrible things that have happened because the past won't change anyway. So, it'd be better to let it go, learn from it and be a much better person. Now, I am happy with how my life turns out to be. I've tried to follow my heart and make good decisions on what's best for myself and not for others. I will keep on trying to put and think for myself before others because what's important now is my own happiness and what I want. This may sound quite selfish but I think I'm just tired of making others happy but not myself. =)) Before I forget, thanks to everyone who has lightened up my life and who has opened up my eyes to see and face the reality.

Um, that was pretty random, wasn't it? =). Whatever it is and whoever we are, we are humans and we must know that we can't get everything that we want and so we have to look at the bright side whenever problems come to us! I'm trying to be positive now haha. and I just wanna enjoy my life while I can! Mwaaah. tata titi tutu.

P/S: Nisah, the qainnyiah qanot say-pa-ret wit da lapisnyiah~ lapisnyiah hap to be attached to da siponnyiahhh..... HAHAHAHA.

2009-01-24T19:58:00.005+08:00

HAI! Sorry for the lack of updates. Both of us are busy :D. My exam is OVER! I finished my exam on friday. It was supposed to finish on Thursday, but our paper on Wednesday got cancelled because the college's electricity got shut down. haha. So yeaaah. I am excited, but not really. I am excited because I can be a full time fan of a fictional vampire created by one and only Stephenie Meyer. haha! You guys thought that I'm over that? Oh noooo nooo noooo. Na-ah. It feels good to be a fan of something. Something that you can go crazy over with! You knowwwww. :D. So when I have children and grandchildren, I can tell them I was a fan of who, and I'll tell them that it was a great book that I was so very into it and I would ask them to read it. KU PAJAL TU! Kalau nda ku dera. hahaha. And I am going to have a very very long holiday. wehus. I've got to get a job. But I need to enjoy my holiday first! heeeeeeeeee

Ok, I might or might not update this blog too often because I will be busy with Edward Cullen. I mean, reading the book. haha. Ok that was lame. I will finish Eclipse and Breaking Dawn for sure! And I will read it over again when I'm done. hahahahahaha. Maybe I'm just so excited about holidays, or not.

So, Nisa tagged me. Might as well I just do it since I'm on my blogging mood.

Whoever gets tagged has to write 10 things about the person who tagged him/her.

1. She's my closest cousin.
2. She's also my very very bestfriend.
3. She LOVES to shop very very much, she can't see beautiful nice cute things! haha
4. She loves pink. Kalau buleh periuk rumah pun pink. If she can be pink I think she would turn pink! Pink everywhereeeee. :D Her room is pink btw.
5. She's smart.
6. She got pretty accesories and nice things.
7. She's pretty and cute. (I have to. Kalau inda ia dera aku. haha! :8D nadaabah)
8. She loves fashion and hot boysssssssssZZXX.
9. She's funny, crazy and talks alot.
10. She can bake the cake that I love ( you know the nestumchocolate thing. haha!) Shes the best and I love her!

The person who got tagged has to write 10 things about himself/herself.

1. I complain how I'm putting on weight but I still eat alot. haha tsk tsk.
2. I love chocolates very much.
3. I love foods very much.
4. I love shopping, I love shoes!
5. I laugh much too often.
6. I think very sehlowww.
7. I am easily panic.
8. I love cats but I can't have one! booo
9. I want to have my own huge wardrobe!
10. I day dream too much! woohuu

Choose 10 people to be tagged

1. Alisabun
2. Beyla
3. Citra
4. and everyone who wants to tag him/herself.
5,6,7,8,9,10.

Home!

2009-01-20T15:56:00.002+08:00

Hi again. Wow, I haven't updated this blog for quite long now. I just didn't have any idea what to blog about dan.... tiada inspirasi! hahaha. anyways, hello, how are you? I hope everyone is doing well. I am good. Finally, I'm home! It feels good to be home again. I missed my bed so much. I don't really miss my room because it looks like a store-room :(. If my bed wasn't in that room, it would definitely be a store-room pulang sudah tu. I blame my family (mentang-mentang I was awayyyy! boo. mental! LOL). Ok, kidding! I need to paint my room maroon, or orange, or olive green or hahaha! anyone wanna help me paint? :):).

Okay.... no, I don't really have the mood to blog. will update soon with whats been happening! mwah. bye.

Temptations.

2009-01-10T19:51:00.003+08:00

I woke up from my 30mins sleep at 4.46pm feeling a little bit confused. The first thing on my mind was to go to the kitchen and find some food (ha ha). I was feeling hungry okay? So, I looked into the freezer and took some hazelnut chocolate ice cream which was yummy and went to the living room and watched 'King of California' which was good. After I finished my ice cream I was thinking to eat the keropok that I've been avoiding to eat, and I finished it thank you. I rested after I finished and continued watching the movie until the end. I changed to HBO and watched 'Happy Feet' which then suddenly I thought I wanted to eat the munchy's chocolate hazelnut wafer (GASP). Being me myself and I, I took it out of the fridge and ate it while watching the movie until I felt abit queasy then I stopped. Hm. So I thought I ate too much so I better stop.

Yes I ate too much today. I kept telling myself to control but I just cant seem to hear what my mind is saying. I sound crazy. haha. I'm not crazy. Then my mom texted me asking if I want any food cause she's in Bandar. My mind told me I don't have to ask for anything cause I ate too much already. I replied that I don't know and she doesnt have to buy me any food, instead I asked her to buy me something if shes going to the supermarket or anywhere. And she said okay and asked me again whether I want food or not. Guess what. Being the typical me, I ignored my mind and said what the hell. I asked her I want Big Mac. Haven't been eating it for very long so why not. :D and I don't regret it! Its Saturday!

You just read the boring part of my life with the urge to fight the foods. Well not really. I can't bear to fight with foods. Its inhuman =/.

I can't wait to get my teeth on you mister. I can see my eyes getting black every second. It'll turn topaz-hazel after I eat you. hahaha! Go ME!

2009-01-08T20:27:00.008+08:00

Hello hello. Meet Matt Dallas!

rawrr? hahahaha.

So, I just knew about him when I was watching Kyle XY this morning. I thought it was a new movie series but then its not. It was released in June 2006. I think Star World just showed the movie this year or not? I don't know. But I just watched it today so I assumed they just showed it this year? OK, whatever. I tried watching it and I think its interesting, and I think I want to buy the dvd! To know whats it about, CLICK HERE! KLIKLIKLIK!. He was acting as a 16 year old boy and I thought he was young, but then again I was wrong. He was born in 1982! So he acted as a 16 year old boy when he was actually 24. But he looks young really and mhmm mhmm. haha. And the new season which is season 3 will be released this year.

Checked my mail, and my mom sent me this list of movies for 2009, and I can't wait to see some of them! Out of 60 movies, heres my list of movies that I wanna watch! :

- Ink Heart ( Release: Jan '09)
- Last Chance Harvey ( Release: Jan '09)
- New in town ( R: Jan '09)
- The accidental husband (R: March '09)
- The ugly truth (R: April '09)
- Night at the museum 2 (R: May '09)
- Harry potter 6!!! (R: July '09)
- Twilight 2[NEW MOON]!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha (R: Nov '09)

So there! And if New moon is to be released this year I would be very very very extremely unimaginably ecstatic! But I'm not gonna put my hopes up high, cause its either this year or 2010. So yeah. But I cant wait! HEEEEHEEEEEEEEEE. Edward Kulin! HAHA.

If some of you are into horror, thriller, action movies, heres some of the list that I might or might not watch:

- The univited (R: Jan 'o9)
- Friday the 13th (R: Feb '09)
- Street Fighter the legend of Chun-Li (R: Feb '09)
- Watchmen (R: March '09)
- Fast and furious 4 (R: April '09)
- Wolverine (R: May '09)
- Transformers 2 (R: June '09) [Hisyam would love to watch this!]
- Saw 6 (R: October '09)

Theres more movies though, but I'm only putting the one that I'm gonna watch. So yeahh. I doubt that all the movies that I listed will be on the cinema. But you wont know right.

And hey, I watched YES MAN! the other day with Sham and I had a very good laugh with him watching that movie! Its hilarious. I rate 8/10. I love Jim Carrey! :D

Till here!

Life!

2009-01-06T14:31:00.004+08:00

Nothing is perfect. Life isn't perfect. We always wish for a perfect life but it won't ever come true because nothing is perfect. In fact, life is pretty complicated. Well, I don't know how true that is to you but it's true to me. My life is quite complicated. I'm always confused with what I should do with my life. I'm always clueless about how to make this life wonderful. I thought we live to make others happy but people keep telling live to make ourselves happy, not others. What confuses me is when I try to make myself happy, I'd feel guilty because I'll leave the others feeling hurt and unhappy. Tell me how can life ever be wonderful? I don't know.

Well, after everything that I've been through, I've learned so much from it. I don't regret things to happen in such ways because I cherish all the good times and I learn from all the mistakes. I don't want to keep thinking that life is complicated. I want to be happy. I want to live my life like however I want to. I choose not to let other people to tell me what and how to do things. I don't mean that I am not going to listen to any good advices or listen to anyone but if I think I want to do it my way, then be it and live with it. If you can't accept me for who I am, then I won't hope for u to accept me the way I am. That's because I know I have nothing to lose if you can't accept me this way. I love who I am, I'm not trying to be vain but this is me and I love myself. I'm happy with the way I am, I'm happy with the life I live in, I'm happy with how things are in my life. I won't wish it to be perfect. I'd expect any imperfections and I would keep learning to make things normal and sane. I would also keep learning from my mistakes and other people's mistakes. Humans make mistakes! I don't expect things to go my way all the time because that would be one selfish act. Of course I'd consider other people's feelings. Well, I'm sure you get what I mean because I bet most of us wish life was easy.

Anyway, right now, I'm half sad and half happy. If only things were different, I'm sure no one would get hurt. I never wished to make anyone sad, but like I said, I know I have the rights to make my own decision. and again, i wish life wasn't this complicated at all.

Hmm, enough of emotional ramblings, guess what, I shopped till I really dropped! The money dropped so much! hahaha. =)) Though that bothers me a bit, I am very happy with the things i bought. I need it anyway! NEED!! hahahahahahahahha. I think I was too much in love with shopping between the end of dec and beginning of january until i forgot about how much it would affect me in the future. apakan aku becerita.... haha! I am......!

Alright then, tata! Oh, before I go, to a particular someone, I am sorry.

2009-01-03T21:33:00.006+08:00

College will be starting tomorrow on Monday and how I dislike that fact, and exam will be starting VERY SOON! I didn't even touch any of the books and notes while I was here. haaahaaa.

So, I met Hisyam yesterday afternoon and we hung out for abit at Seria. Had a drink at Wywy, well he had a drink and I had ice cream :D. I was actually waiting for my aunty, cause she had to buy some stuffs and cut her hair, so while waiting, Hisyam came over. (: Havent seen him for days and I missed him. So yeah. He had a toothache and I so wanted to cure and pull it out because he was just so stubborn to see the dentist. Senapaaaaaaaaaaaaaakantuuuuuuu. You know what could make your toothache feel better? ICE CREAM! hamahamahamahama.

HMM. I was thinking to myself. I had never in my life been so involved with a character in movies or books. But now, I am. If you know me too well, then you know what I'm talking about. Its 'Twilight' (twilight foreverrrr! hahahaha) I dont know when, I dont know how but I am just so into it since I watched the movie and read the book itself. The book is way greater than the movie btw. All of the books. I am just so into this particular character which is the hero, you-know-who ;). haha. Well, I think mostly the girls loves the vampire who is inevitably gorgeous. The book made it more clearer to how gorgeous and appealing he is. Hayden christensen could be the vampire in the movie and he is forever gorgeous, but Robert got the part as Edward. If they changed Robert for Hayden in another movie, I don't think it would really work out, but it would work out for me tho. haha! But I still choose Robert I think although his hair is very very messy, hes not messy as Edward yknowwwwwwwwwwwwwww. :D Some say hes not that handsome, but he has this you know, this attraction you knowww, you knowww. you knowwwwww. hahahaha apakan.

I just wanna clear all of this from my head. I don't wanna keep it to myself. I'm scared that I might drag myself to hollywood and find him myself! Or put his posters in my bedroom wall, and living in a fantasy world of fiction. haha. VERY scary indeed. Now I know what obsess really means. I'll get over it soon. Because I have my own life to think of! Seriously, had Stephenie Meyer put a spell on the book or something?

Now, I have a boyfriend to think about. And I know how he dislike the fact that I'm being too obsessive about this fiction character. How cute. haha. Well, you are still my obsession, my non-fiction character. WUUU la la la la. See ya laytah alligatah.

Happy 2009 =)

2009-01-03T11:48:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR, 2009!!

Am I too late to wish you a happy new year?! Whatever. So, I wanna wish you all a Happy New Year! and, I would like to say HELLO to 2009. May this year would be much much better than the previous previous years. May this year would be filled with lots of joy, happiness and laughter. =)

I thought of some 2009 resolutions and I think I would love to share them with you.

- Be the happiest person in the world; in other words, no more tears!! I'd doubt that though.
- I'm gonna put myself first in every situation before other people. i.e. my thoughts and my feelings first.
- Try to love and enjoy everything I do.
- good job, good pay, so I can travel and shop! weeeeee.
- Spend lots and lots of time with the people who matters to me so much - especially my family and my grandparents!
- Register to P2F and reveal my singing talent pasal suara ku rugged and IMPIAN ku adalah menjadi seorang penyanyi yang terkenal didunia. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
- Learn all kinds of dance because I'm cool like that.
- Cut my sister's hair pasal she's uncool.

I'm running out of things to say. So, I hope everything I just said would be achievable by 2009. AMIN! and if I'm gonna be the happiest person in this world and that I'm not gonna cry for every little thing, I would NOT lanja everyone but myself and mama ku and bapa ku and nenek2 ku. =) Would that even be possible, not crying at all?

Eh, I thought i've run out of things to say. haha. love you all!

A new year!

2009-01-01T23:48:00.016+08:00

Ive told you that I celebrated my new year by reading my all time obsession. But afterward, I talked to Nisa online and she decided to play dress up since its new year. We both were at home so we had our own extravagant new year "party"!! It was fun! haha.

Por favor, miamor~

yaw!

We had gone utterly insane and it was great. Thats our new resolution! I love my cousin.

2009-01-01T00:16:00.009+08:00

Noticed the skeleton with a party hat and a black dull background. Well I must say, I felt that way right now. haha. I am not entirely alone, I got my parents here but it just doesn't feel like new year at all. Maybe because I don't bother much about the date that has been abruptly changing throughout my phase of tedious life. I just dont bother much at all. And the good part is, it doesn't bother me at all for not celebrating new year this year with parties or any crazy and hilarious events, cause before it bothers me for not going out during this time of year. I have the sense that I am getting older every year and I won't be celebrating new years in the future. Or I will? ha ha. I don't know. Maybe I won't bother. Maybe I am getting older. *gasp*

I celebrated my new year by finishing one of Stephenie Meyer's unpublished novel 'Midnight Sun', chapter 1 only, which is the sequel to 'Twilight' but from the version of Edward. His own stories. I can't wait for it to be published! Anything for Edward! hahahahahahha. Well, I did feel a little teensy weensy feeling of new year from the fireworks that I could hear from outside but I couldn't see it. I don't know where it came from, but thank you for making me feel abit of new year. And to my boyfriend too, he called me around 12+ and greeted me a happy new year, and he made me feel that its actually new year and I am so happy. Although hes not with me now, but I could feel his presence. haha apakan. Jiwang forever. So thank you. I love you syg.

So, enough with my petty talk. I just wanna wish my sister, my bestfriends, Hisyam, my families (although they're not reading all this. Or maybe yes? haha), and to everyone a very Happy New year 2009!

This year may be a good year to start over and find/try new things, so GOOD LUCK! May god bless and don't do things we are not supposed to do. haha!

If ur asking whats my new resolution. Its always going to be the same. DONT PROCRASTINATE. Be successful and all those crap. Oh! and get my own Stephenie Meyer's novel, all the sequel to Twilight! haha. and yes, I am still obsess with the book and Edward. Get along with it! wuuuuuuu. I need Eclipse seriously! I only got breaking dawn. I borrowed everything from my cousin. So yeah. I want my own, I dont care. For Edward. hahahahahahahahaha. ok Stop with the Edward.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

*FIREWORKS*FIREWORKS*FIREWORKS* haha!

2008-12-30T21:34:00.003+08:00

Another post in a day? I do seem jobless and life-less. Honestly, I am going insane. truly insane. I bet I'm the most life-less girl in this world. god, how boring can my life get? please tell me. Okay, my personal message on msn is 'please let me ride on a crazy and never-ending roller-coaster just so i can scream my heart out'. Apakan, di bagitau ani wah~ haha. But, yes, I really need to ride on a rollercoaster. I wanna scream like it is no one's business. i wanna scream until i don't feel this way anymore. I'm just going crazy. First, it's hot in this house. second, I don't talk much and I wanna talk as much as i want. (apakan? haha). third, I miss everyone at home. fourth, fuck, im getting tired of being jobless and being on holiday although i know im gonna miss this holiday later. lastly, I don't know.

All I'm looking forward to this week is Summadayze! I hope the festival would turn out to be fun, really really fun and I wanna dance like I'm the only one who exists in this world. seriously. I must do something that i really like so I feel much better. I can't believe I'd be like this. oh well, fuck it. I am trying my best to be happy. I am trying my best to bubbly again. apakan, it sounds like as if i don't talk to people anymore! hahahahha no lah.. I'm kidding. I'm just bored. really really bored and I'm feeling quite down. hmph.

I wanna shop again. I shopped 3 days ago and I totally forgot about the bills i have to pay hahaha. But right now, I feel like shopping again because it makes me happy. =) I want ferrero rocher. Coz it taste good and it makes me happy and it satisfies my needs! HAHAHA. I am random. yes I am. oh, Safwan has not copied the pics to my external hardisk yet so the pictures are yet to be posted. tunggu la selama-lamanya!

Bah. ByeBye. Maybe, I'm gonna get ferrero rocher later! yum.

EC! EC! EC!

2008-12-30T19:39:00.011+08:00

So, I just came back from KK yesterday. Was supposed to be back on Sunday, but then there was a very very very long queue at the immigration point at erm near to Temburong I think. So my dad suggested to stay in Temburong rather than waiting in a 5 hours long queue of cars. We stayed at the rest house at Temburong and I thought the place was going to be a disaster, but I was mistaken. The place was okay and clean. Don't judge the book by its cover they say.

The journey to KK was very tiring and great I guess. On the way to KK I was busy reading 'New Moon', so I was not really aware of my surroundings throughout the journey. My mind was on the book all the time. =)))))))). hahaha. andd KK was great great great! I did shop til I drop and it was worth it! :D I had fun with the girls; Amal & Beyla. It was crazy and hilarious! guwwreat! And I really want to read 'Eclipse'. But when I went to the bookstore it was sold out. GRRR. I finished reading 2 of the books now I need the 3rd book. Yes, I'm obssess. I don't care. Stephanie Meyer is good!

I have to admit. I have a crush on Edward Cullen although hes a fiction. I watched the movie, so I can picture how he looks like in the book and I have a crush on the actor as Edward Cullen. Like seriously. HAHAHA. Call me crazy, but Stephanie Meyer knows how to make all the girls go crazy over Edward, and I am one of them! Wuhoos. I am offcially insane and subconsciously falling in love with Edward. hahahhahahaahahha.

Dont judge me! *slaps* I know where I'm standing and I am head over heels with my Hisyam. ....and Edward Cullen. HAHAHAHA. nada wah.

Oh, I almost forgot! Selamat menyambut tahun Hijrah 1430! Look how time flies.

Here are the pictures from our KK trip! Click HERE&HERE!!

2008-12-30T14:44:00.002+08:00

Get ready people because I'm here to complain!!

It is sooo freaking hot today. The temperature today is 38degrees. And there's only 1 fan in this house which is for the room. I can't be bothered to get it out. hahaha. but oh my god, it's freaking hot and it makes me feel so lazy to go out. There's no wind at all. and even if there is, the breeze will still be hot. =( sigh.

Oh, my brother is here for a week already now. =) It's been great having him here. We didn't go out much but we did go shopping. That's the best part, for me! lol. We went to the beach once - it was quite fun but it was really windy which then hurt my legs. haha. I took some pics and will post it someday cause they're still with my brother.

Talking about my week, there's nothing much to talk about. I've been confused and I think i am still confused. But whatever it is, I'll keep trying to stay happy. =) thanks to them who have tried to cheer me up. xoxo.

Well. that's it for today. Will update more soon~ babai.

HA!

2008-12-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

This is not necessary, but let me laugh my ass off if you may excuse me.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Ehem. Sorry about that. Its not really funny tho to what I'm laughing at. I just love to exaggerate my laugh so it'll look funny? wuhoo! So the reason why is that, I was watching my friend's video, Izza, on Facebook that she posted, then their voice was different, like the sound of voice of si Boboy on Kristalfm. Like chipmunks. I thought she edited it and it was funny when they talked. The way Izza laughed was funny. Mcm aiii kiuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut. Mcm chipmunk! hahahaha. I was about to comment but I changed my mind.

Then I watched the second video, it was only her, and the sound was the same. The chipmunk sound! And again I thought she edited it to make it funny. But then I read her comments there was no laughing or anything. So then I realised that something is wrong with the speaker, or not? I went to youtube and typed my favourite song for now, Decode by Paramore. I listened to it and YES! Something is wrong with the speaker. I thought Paramore edited her voice too! It was funny when I listened to the song with her chipmunk voice like that. haaaahaaaaaa.

But I think its the CPU. Cause everything was ok when the speaker was with my laptop. Hmm. Ai, aku becerita. :D

Just Kill me now!!

2008-12-19T12:17:00.003+08:00

Okay, just kill me already because:

1) I'm so bloated. I couldn't stop eating. i blame my pms. this pms sucks. it has ruined my happy life. HAHAHA. it keeps worrying me because i can't resist the de-li-siooosssss foods! I just wanna munch munch munch. It's not normal but it's normal to happen every month. hmm. chocolates look so good when pms becomes my bestfriend. (it becomes my bestfriend ocassionally) haha.

2) I'm broke and jobless. Such a bad bad bad combination! say no no both! i hate having both of them in my life. they ruin my life too. they make me unhappy. ha.ha.ha. How can I go shopping without money? shopping saja jua ehh kan di ingaukan! but hello, I'm a girl.. don't tell me you girls don't wanna shop! if u don't, then u must be a boring boring boring gals forever. boo! =). And, how can i get extra money when I'm jobless? oh, now i know, I'm bloated because I'm jobless. no exercise. I have 1001 reasons for being bloated u knoh. and, when I'm jobless like this, it makes me sad and makes me feel really really bad for my parents. I AM TERRIBLY SORRY. i am trying and keep on trying. damn, I feel useless. =(. So people, kill me now!!

3) I can't attend Oprah's show. I want those gifts too! she just gave her audiences the electronic book! you can download as many books as you want. RUGGED JUA TU!! i want one!! Apart from that, I want her other gifts because they are soo cool!

4) I can't attend Ellen Degeneres' show. She has this 12 days giveaway gifts for her audiences!! They are so damn lucky. I even went to the website cause we can order online, but unfortunately, she doesn't send it to AUSTRALIA. WAHAHAHHAHA. yesterday, she gave nice stuffs including the $500 E71 phone! what the hell right! The ladies got it for free. FREE!! hm..

5) I'm missing my family so much!!! I miss the gathering with the whole family (my family includes all my cool and funny aunties/uncles and grannies!! =)). I miss hearing and sharing the lame jokes and laughters! I miss youu! I miss my grandma so much. I hope she's doing very well at home.

6) constipation is bothering me! HAHAHA. and again, I blame my PMS. ok, enough of that.

7) I want new shoes, dresses and tees but .. refer to number 2. The summer dresses are adorable. I like!

8) I have no books to read! safwan, please be here sooner because I want new books to read and I want new dvds to watch! I can't afford to get new books now. LOL. kesian kah bunyiku? do i sound so pathetic mcm minta2 duit? HAHA SOOOO VHAAATT! i am trying.. trying trying trying!!!!! and i am so sick of trying. boo these aussies because they don't wanna hire this cute gals from brunei WAHAHAHAH. I think I'm crazy already.

9) this place is getting freakier. those money-less kids (below 18) are acting very violently. It's scary that I don't wanna talk about it. So I will never stop praying that we'll always be safe from all these crimes. Kenapakan dorang cematu? hmmm.

10) .................................................................................................................................................... I think I'm dead.

Ugh. I'm watching Oprah and that chicken (chicken kah tu..) looks so yummmmmmy. bye!

Did i look like a really jobless person? hahaha.

twinkle twinkle.

2008-12-18T17:40:00.003+08:00

Watched Twilight yesterday! YAY! I wouldn't say it was great and SADLY I have to agree with my sister with that. But I wouldn't say it was OK OK either like she said. I like it, It was good. I haven't read the book yet, so I didn't expect anything extraordinary (altho I did a little bit cos everyone was excited about it). ha ha. But I have to agree that books are great than movies!

I don't like Robert Pattinson, but I like him as Edward Cullen seriously. I can't stop thinking how romantic and strong he was in that movie and how his brown eyes gleamed like a sexy vampire when he stares. I think I am dazzled by Edward for a moment. I love vampires. They are sexy. I like the part when they play baseball. It was fast and strong and sexy. HAHA! Am I spoiling the movie? Im sorry. But in the end, everyone died.

AND ALISA, If I were you, I would eat more than one! Because it looks delicious! hahahahaha. I smiss yous.

my new year resolution? uhmm I want to be a vampire? HAHAHAHA. Bah lisa, lets be a vampire with me! Kurus jua kan. We only drink blood (manisan). yummmmmmm.

Vampires with zexy mo-leyy mo-leyy! Be scared we are strong.

Heaven

2008-12-17T20:48:00.008+08:00

I bought this today and tried it. and seriously, it was ... really H.E.A.V.E.N.! trust me. It's really good. Girls, you'll love it. =) I ate one because I had to control myself - I can't eat more than one today. I've already gained a little bit of weight and it annoys me to the core. Pms-ing. I crave for sweet stuff. yumm. chocooooooooleeeeeeeeeeetttttt~ random jua ah ceritaku atu!

Yesterday, I was 'window-shopping' online at Victoria's secret and Forever21. There were some pretty stuffs that I felt like buying immediately. If only I wasn't this broke! hehehe.

Victoria's Secret

I like these studded flats. =)

Forever 21

Ain't them pretty? Damn, I have too many stuff on my shopping list.

If only, if only!!

Twilight Verdict!

2008-12-17T12:02:00.005+08:00

Hello!

I've watched twilight, last night! Surprisingly, I didn't fall asleep! Oh, why I said that is because everytime I watch a movie (whatever movie!), I will fall asleep halfway during the movie. I really don't know why. I think I have a disease called Semi-Antimovie. ha.ha.ha.

Anyways, talking about twilight, it was OKAY. I can't really say it was great. I liked the book better. It has more details, more exciting and Edward was more romantic in the book, I should say. =) I'm sorry that I have to say that, you twilight movie lovers! hehehe. I didn't say it was bad. It was alright. Maybe my expectations for this movie was quite high. I wanted it to be really good. I don't really know how to explain it but to me, the movie was kind of like, 'rushing'. I don't have a better word to explain it. That was my honest opinion.

I think, to those who have not read the book yet, you might find it really good, which is great. To those who haven't watched it, go to the cinema and watch it. It's still worth your money afterall. =)) I have to remind myself not to put high expectations on the movies after I have read the books! And to whoever you are who are so excited to watch it, don't get disappointed yet because you never know, you might like it! So, stay excited. hahahahhaha.

Apart from twilight, nothing much!

tata. =)

2008-12-16T17:49:00.002+08:00

Twilight is still on. Yes? Well, yeah. The seats on cinemas are still full especially at the maww(mall). Maybe I'm gonna watch it tommorrow. I'll be looking forward to it since everyone is looking forward to watch it. *KAJUUUUTS* inside joke.

Assignments are due tomorrow so I am looking forward to that too. But I am not entirely done with it, so I guess I'll be dreaming my ass off late today. I hope not. I'm looking forward to that. ha ha. I'll be needing coffee tonight. But I wont be able to sleep after then. So coffee cancelled! UNLESS, if I have to. Sorry, I'm blabbing here. I JUST CANT WAIT TO START AND FINISH THE ASSIGNMENT! *very happy face* This is what you get for doing it on the last minute.

I'm just lack in motivation, that's all. But after seeing Bush being thrown by the shoes, I was motivated again! (y) Go hide in the bushes, Bush. Cause you're looking all nakeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed.

Dance!

2008-12-15T21:35:00.002+08:00

Oh, it's our 248th post! Yes, it's a big deal because it's my birthday - 24th of August! hahaha. No, I didn't want to post because of the number but I wanna share with you some dance videos that I admire. I think one is from You think you can dance America and the other one is Australia. I don't really remember. hehehe =)

This is Chelsea and Mark dancing to Bleeding Love. I think they're the ones in 'You think you can dance - America'. To me, of all the hiphop dances in that season, this was the best!! I like.

This one must be the Australia one. I don't remember the girl's name but the guy's name is Joshua. That girl is really good. All in all, if I'm not mistaken Joshua won the whole competition (the Australia one only).

I'm sure u'll love both! =) and, go browse for Bobby Newberry because his choreography is so cool.

Chakhiluna~~

2008-12-15T18:10:00.004+08:00

It's Monday! hehe, I like to specify the days, don't I? I didn't do much today and yesterday. Last Saturday was great. We went to the BBQ at Azrul's crib before we went to Metros. The foods were really good.. I Like. Prawns, YUM! Didn't do much there, we just eat, hung out and talk! I didn't talk much though. Instead, I laughed alot haha. Not so close to them yet. But, they're alright. nice people! After the BBQ, went back home and get changed then went straight to Metros! It was Ayoi's good friend, Ian's birthday. It was fun. I had fun! I danced like there's no tomorrow. I think I was the one who stayed hyper all night. hehehe. I danced everytime the good music was on. So, it was great! =) Thanks for inviting, Ian. We met Niena and the others there too. so yeah!

Oh, there was a crazy fight outside the club. I saw that one guy kicking the other guy's face. that was pretty scary. At first they were at this little area having a little warm up probably, and we had to gather there coz Ian was sitting around that area too. After a few minutes standing there and talk, we heard girls screaming and I saw those guys fighting. Oh my god. Of course I didn't wait any longer, so I went off to another area near the club which was safer. damn~ Alhamdulillah, nothing happened to us. Apart from those two events, nothing much happened last week.

I am going to watch Twilight tomorrow night! Uuuuweee~ I can't wait. I'm excited. So, I'm gonna skim through the book to get the idea of what the movie will be like. HAHA. skadar kan! Anyway. I have no books to read now and no interesting dvds to watch. oh well. Now, I think I love cooking! I've been searching for recipes online to cook my favourite dishes. hehehe =) nice!

Hmm. on a random note, I need to get a haircut. It's pretty long now. Not so long, just longer than the haircut I want. apakan! oh, i wish we could have a tattoo. It'd be nice right if there are nice designs on your body. hm...

what are you gonna do during new year's eve? I'm still clueless of what to do because most of the events here are quite pricey. oh well. I will think about it 2 days before new year's eve.

p/s: Anisut adikku, tolong lah belikan dvd cerita 'weeds' for me. Do you have any idea of how boring this place is? I need something to entertain myself. HAHAHAHA. you know I love you, so balikan! MWAHHHHHH!!

BANG!

2008-12-13T22:45:00.002+08:00

I think I need someone to bang my head with steel, or strangle me until I suffocate.

I'm stuck on my assignment and I can't seem to start it over again or do another one. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? I cannot seem to concentrate on what I'm doing. I am actually taking my rest. uh-huh. Just 30mins or more. ..............I WANT TO CRY! HAHAHAHA. what zee vugs.

I blame PMS. ;)

I want a robot please. I want my boyfriend here so I can rest on his tummy. I miss you.

A BEE SEE DEE EEE EFF GEE. HECH AII JEY KAY ELL EMM ANN OOO PEE. QUE ARE ESS TEE YOU VEE. DABELYOU EXX WYY ZEE. Am I going nuts?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2008-12-12T13:47:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NASHRIN PUTRI a.k.a JELITEEE~

Have a great birthday and I wonder if you make your own birthday cupcakes? haha. if you do, then enjoy your cuppies! and, May Allah bless you with lots and lots of happiness! Mwahh.

Love you my dear.

p/s: Lisa nak pegi kl, nak shop! tapi, yelah, tunggu la bile lisa ada duit. HAHAHAHA.

Get Shaky!

2008-12-11T13:16:00.004+08:00

Thursday, Thursday, Thursday. Suburb late night shopping! Exciting.. NOT! What's been happening last week and the past few days? Hmm, nothing! =) that's pretty good than having to stress about something. I was just looking at the bright side rather than being so sulky every time I do nothing. I'm feeling pretty neutral today. How was your week? How was your day? I hope you had a great one. =))

Anyways, I was watching Oprah's show just then and the topic was about general etiquettes. Mostly focused on restaurant etiquettes. So, because it was quite interesting, I googled it and I've learned one or a few new things about how to act and give good impression in the restaurant and how not to be rude! Sadly (for me!), I just knew about giving tips to the waiter who serve you drinks if you're in a buffet dinner. I didn't know about it until today! hehe. It's good to know all these stuff, you know, in case you're gonna go for dinner with V.I.P or with your date or whoever it is. manners matters! nice.

What I'm really looking forward to this week is the Twilight movie! It's showing in all cinemas now. Omygod. I was supposed to purchase the tickets online but I haven't done it yet, so. Everytime I listen to the song Decode by Paramore, I get excited. haha. And, I think it's the hottest movie this month, do you reckon? I do! =) Well, wait till I watch it, I'll tell you what I think about the movie yeah. Apart from Twilight, we're going clubbing at Metros this Saturday. Although I'm not so into clubbing (Metros tia lagi...), I'm just gonna go for the fun of it. for the music and to dance. Music nya atu wah.. caweeeee~ lol. AND, thats the reason why I choose karaoke over clubbing. karaoke dapat lagi ku teriak-teriak and show my talent off. LOL! talent tiaaa. yeah, whatever alright.

I wanna get a new gladiator sandal. I wanna get a new handbag. Oh guess what, Guess shop/branch just existed in Perth. It's in the city! I like! So, I went there once and I saw a one nice handbag. I like the colour. I like the design. I like everything about it. If Only..! Damn me! Besides that, there's nothing new in Perth. I wanna go to Summadayze!! urgh. Please please, spare me some tickets! I need at least 3 tickets!! hahaha. as if those tiketek people are reading this. but, you never know your luck! lols.

Anyway, i wanna leave you with my favourite song of this month. I love the beat and it makes me wanna dance all the time! Trust me, you'll like it too! =) enjoy. sorry about the length of time of the video. it's the music that matters! hahahaha.

2008-12-08T16:04:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha!

When I was about to get ready to go to my cousin's house for makan-makan, (which was good btw. I love the daging! :D) I was thinking that Nisa would be there and I will have company to joke around with. But then another minute passed, I remembered that she went off to Qatar. I was so bored just now, I kept quiet most of the time and just listened to my cousins talking. I miss you Nisa! Ugh. And another part I hate is that I have to pack again cause I'm going back to Bandar. More ughhh. =(

I feel very tired and I don't know why. I didn't do running or anything. I just ate. I think its the meat. sighh. And I have assignments to finishhh. sigh. sigh sigh sigh sigh more sigh.

Hows Dubai or Qatar? hahaha. I bet you're having fun! I bet you doooooooo.

Selamat Hari Raya!

2008-12-08T13:55:00.004+08:00

Just wanna wish all Muslims, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha.

How I wished I could join my family celebrating Aidiladha and makan-makan today! =)
Miss you, family! mwah.

Human Nature

2008-12-06T22:18:00.003+08:00

We do things to please people. That's what we do everyday, don't you agree? Not all of us though, most of us! Most of the good things that we do were just to impress other people. Most of the things we say were white freaking lies just to, again, impress other people. We don't say the truth because, apparently, the truth hurts. If it doesn't meant to be painful, then it is because if we don't do it the way they want it to be, they won't be happy. Other people's feelings matters, right? right, right, right.

I know, we can choose what to we want to do and what we want to say, but what if it is for the people you love and the people you care about? It's pretty confusing. I wish, there are more freedom in life. Some of you are just lucky that the people you deal with are understanding. What if you have to hang around with people who are 'not-so-understanding'? i don't know. Oh, it's funny too, with the fact that we do things to impress them but they can do and say whatever they want without even considering about how we feel. Don't you think? Well, that was just a thought. I was just sharing with you about the 'human nature'. It's pretty cool. oh no, it's pretty depressing, really. Don't you just wish sometimes that instead of you being the one who has to do everything to impress others, you are the one who bosses people around? hehe. Well. life ain't that fair kan! life can be a bitch at times. But, life is life. It usually depends on how you want it to be. if you want to be the boss, you'll be the boss. if you want to be the 'follower', then be it and should not complain coz u chose it to be that way. Moreover, in reality, no one can tell you how to run your life, really.

Am I a hypocrite? Let's talk about that in another post! hahaha.

happy thoughts. happy thoughts.. oh, I wasn't sad or mad, it was just one random thought about our everyday life! hee. oh yes, happy thoughts.. none actually. I wanna watch Ayat-ayat cinta again because the first time I watched it, I didn't cry. Inda brapa feel kalie because I was sleepy? hahaha. I don't know. Anyhoots. have a great night peeps. much love from me...

Another Dilemma!

2008-12-06T12:18:00.005+08:00

Trip to Down South - Albany; where can enjoy the sights, relax at the beach and enjoy fishing, get high (im kidding! hehe) and which we plan to stay for a few days. It will cost us quite alot though. but it's gonna be fun! We plan to go before Christmas.

OR

Rave Festival - SummaDayze; where the famous DJs' will perform their cool trance music and which will cost us $122 each. that excludes the spending on drinks and foods and other stuff. I would love to goooo because I've never been to this kind of festival! and, it's gonna be fun too because everyone's gonna get so hyped up! =D

We need to decide before Christmas! Way before Christmas. We don't know which one will be worth it. If we don't go for the trip, we're afraid that we won't get to go next time when everyone's busy with work and studies (because now everyone's on holiday and safwan, my bro, will be here during Christmas!!). If we don't go to Summadayze, I won't have a chance to go next time unless I come to Perth or other states of Australia again next year! hehe. Although 'Big Day Out' is in February, I don't think it will be the same coz the performers are rock bands instead of DJs. It will be fun too thought but. Darn, why is it always hard to decide? hahahhaha. We so would love to go for both events IF only we have more cash! hehe. What do you think?

Oh by the way, just wanna let you know, to M.Daud kilau's fans, his concert is today in PERTH! and the prices for tickets - adults; $40 and Children; $20! siapa mau pigi? There will be a hi-tea with him! HAHA (j/k!). I was so surprised when I saw that little poster arah Makan-Makan cafe that M.Daud Kilau will be here today! hehehe. Bah, ~satu ringgit~dua ringgit~~ hehhehe. but nadalah, I don't think it's a concert, I think the veterans here in perth requested for him to perform for their function. lol. funny~ tapi he's cool whaat!

Random.

2008-12-03T17:37:00.003+08:00

Hi, it's me again! My hair smells good, I like! =)

I was cutting my nails just then, and while cutting, I was thinking, why don't I ever know what I want? I know it's there somewhere in my heart or in my head but I just can't seem to figure out what I want, just yet. I just realised, most of the things that I do and that I've done are not the things that I really want to do. Especially, the major I did. Accounting. I didn't have any accounting backgrounds in high school or college. I didn't have any basics (well, I knew a bit when I did the subject commerce in High School and I stopped learning commerce after form 3). I didn't have any clue about what accountants do aside from counting money, budgeting and whatsoever it has to do with money. Well, back in high school, the only subject I enjoyed was Mathematics and I was good at it. So, I thought, since Accounting was more like Maths because of the numbers and calculations, I chose to take Accounting. I know, what a weird way of thinking. I just didn't know what I want, what I like and what I enjoy. I so do not want to be a mathematician! hehe. With all these uncertainty in my life, I have realised that I am just too ignorant.

I thought being ignorant was a good thing. Afterall, there are still drawbacks about being ignorant. I won't know what I want. That's what I hate about it. I wanna be everything. I thought I wanted to be a doctor because doctors help people but I scratched after I noticed that I am so not good in Biology. Next, when I was in college, I wanted to be an engineer (hah, why the heck did I want to be an engineer?).That was because I was pretty good in maths and physics and I thought I could follow my dad's path being an engineer. Unfortunately, I flunked in Physics and no universities wanted to accept me. (I was such a failure, I am so ashamed of myself..sigh). However, I knew that's not the end of the world. I know there are always chances if I work really hard. My parents wanted me to go to university and get a degree. So, I started to think and think about what I wanna do. So, that's when I thought Accounting will be a good choice! haha. When I think about it again now, I thought it was funny because I thought Accounting was like maths. Oh well! i thought I couldn't cope, but look at me now, I'm glad that I've made it. I could actually make my parents proud of me although I know myself that my average grade wasn't that good. ugh, Sometimes I feel like a total failure. I will never succeed in life. SIGH! Well, now i think that all these happened because I was too ignorant. I didn't really observe the things I do. I enjoyed everything until I didn't know what one thing that I actually enjoy the most.

Life's pretty challenging. Not unless you know what you like and what you want, I don't think you'll ever enjoy what you're doing. Well, that's just one of my opinions. Maybe you think differently =) Antah kan~ - I thought I was decisive, but in reality, I'm actually not. I'm kind of indecisive. It's just quite complicated. Sometimes, I know what I like and sometimes I don't. I hate being so 'whatever'. sigh. I like dancing but I can't choreograph because I'm not that good at it. I like singing but I don't have that talent and I don't really have the voice. I thought I wanna be writer too because I love reading but unfortunately, I'm not that creative! I like music but I don't have that talent too. I like gossiping and talk crap, so maybe I should be a 'paparazzi' or reporter. haha. Naah, i'm kidding. Well, maybe I should keep thinking about what I actually like. Maybe I should go out more and do lots of activities and so maybe from there I can find out what I want! weeee.

Since I have a degree in Accounting, why not use it right? Why do I have to be stressed out about what I want. I will figure it out someday. See, i'm just being 'whatever' again! Sometimes Ayoi hates it too. I'm sorry syg for being too ignorant but that's just me. hehehe =). Ayoi and I actually met these two ladies during some function and we were talking about work and stuff. So she said, 'If you don't get to do what you love, try to love what u do'. That was actually kind of true. love the things you do. enjoy the things you do. Some people are just lucky coz they get to do the things they really love. =)

Ugh, I hate this feeling - I feel like a failure. I feel like I'll never succeed in life. I feel like the dumbest person in the world. Sigh! But, I know, this feeling will be gone in a second. but it will come back again after a while. pfft.

Ok lah, I'd better go~ tata =) have a great day people.

Tagged by Nurul.

2008-12-03T16:23:00.002+08:00

Since I'm bored and jobless, might as well share some LOVELY things about me! hahaha.

1.Each blogger must post this rules.
2.Each blogger must being with ten facts about them.
3.Other blogger who are also tagged must also state the rules and ten facts about themselves.
4.You must choose ten people to give this award to and list their names at the end.
5.It is essential that tag is left at their tag boards,letting them know about the award they've received.

TEN FACTS ABOUT ME:
1. I'm petite which therefore means, I'm undeniably cute. thanks =)
2. I will only talk really a lot until you can't stand it once I get really comfortable with you.
3. I pull my hair while reading or watching tv and that's really bad habit of mine.
4. I used to not like bananas but now, I REALLY do! they actually taste so good. hahahaha.
5. People's feelings first then mine. damn!
6. I love dancing & singing. Though I'm not THAT good at both! :P
7. Smiley!
8. I am very body-conscious and yet I just can't stop chewing. lol. It's pretty annoying!
9. I am very cool because I am funny. lol
10. I just watched Madagascar 1 today! isn't that sad? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. When it comes to describing myself, it has never been just a word. It has to be really long kan? boo me!

TEN PEOPLE I'M GOING TO TAG:
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10. Whoever is jobless. =)

stop and stare.

2008-12-03T15:04:00.006+08:00

I can't wait for holidays. I can't wait to finish the exams. I can't wait to get everything done and over with! I do think that I'm growing up little by little. I want to get a job and be good in it. Not good, GREAT! I want to be a successful woman so I could earn my own money and buy all those things that I wanted when I was a teenager, and pay everything back to my parents! I really can't wait. Time flies so fast, time is gold! And yet, I am wasting my time typing my thoughts here in this blog. hahahaha.

Its my motivation!

Walking through your life, people passing by. Standing in the sun underneath the skies.

I like that song on Star World. It sounds so happy and very summer. haha apakan. Seriously. I love it! Makes my mind colourful! Good job Star World!

2008-11-30T23:05:00.001+08:00